Im scared to death!!! Wanted to be in bed 1 1/2 hours ago and I'm still not ready. I'm gonna finish things up and TRY to sleep... I'm sooooo scared!!!! Who'da thought someone 7 pounds could scare me to death??? I can't wait to meet her tho :)
This is my last blog as the Pregnant Chick.. My next blog will be as Mommy.
BYE!!!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Monday Update and the PLAN :)
Well... I dunno if anyone reads this.. SO I guess I'll make yet another update just in case someone actually reads! HAHA...
Went to my appointment this morning.. they did my biophysical profile ultrasound (I have atleast one a week!)... and Baby V was bouncy and doing well! She did her practice breaths fine and the umbilical cord blood pressure was good.
They took measurements today since the doc pretty much assumed we'd be inducing this week anyways... Baby V is about 7 pounds now (just short of 7) but that is just a guestimate! and she's still measuring behind developmentally wise but I think only like a week behind or something (not positive on that).. but shes now in the 32nd percentile (50 percentile is ideal) but she went from the 9th, to the 8th, to the 23rd or something? then to the 32nd so shes doing good!!!! (Percentile means shes bigger then 32% of fetuses her age)
Stacy, my ultrasound tech said baby seems LONG! Her head is WAY low and her butt is WAY high.. and her job is just ultrasounds so I'm sure she knows what she's looking at! But, I am 5'10 and I guess on mom's side I have uncles who are like 6'7!!! (mom is adopted!)... So I'm hoping shes tall just for the fact that her carseat has 2 settings in size and not 3, so if shes short she might be too short for her car seat and thats one more thing for me to worry about :P hahhahah. WORRY WORT.. seriously!
So FINALLY i saw my OB.. Seriously this is the longest wait to see her ever! Usually I'm in there within like 15 minutes, but today I think it was about 45 minutes and I REALLY wanted to see her cuz I wanted to know what we were gonna do.. so I was very impatient and I'm getting quite big so its really uncomfortable to sit there.. I felt like I couldnt breathe!
Doc came in and asked "so are we inducing this week?" and I said YES. haha.. I really wanted her born on the 7th cuz thats my lucky number and hey, if I can pick a date why not get a number i want HAHA.. but she asked "tuesday or thursday" and I chickened out and said thursday (the 9th) WHich is Barbara's bday and cousin Jeremy's bday! hahah.. So we'll add another one to the list i guess!
I have to be there at 5am on thursday morning! I SO DONT DO MORNINGS! HAHAHAAH... I hate the hospital but I was kinda hoping to be admitted the night before so I'm already there in the morning! Sounds dumb i know.. So we gotta leave here by 4:30am to get there on time.. I dont know if its better to wake up the last minute and just GO or get up early and wake myself up and be nervous for who knows how long! hahah
I'm thankful I have some Ambien from before pregnancy (just found out I could have been taking it this whole time!) hahah.. but I'm definately taking one the night before so maybe I'll get a good nights sleep! Who knows!!
I am quite progressed on my own, so the doc said I may not even make it to thursday! She said baby's really like to come once an induction has been scheduled too! hahah.. Hopefully she'll just hold off till thursday.. itll make life easier i guess.
Oh, and the baby is facing my spine (Like she's supposed to be!) We learned in class when they're facing the other way you get back labor and thats supposed to hurt a lot! So she seems to be doing everything right on her end :) Good Girl! hahah..
I am going to take the epidural tho.. Kinda disappointing but the doc said shes going to have to break my water more then likely and with the pitocin, its going to be more painful then if I were to go into labor naturally! So she said I can have the epidural right when i get there if i want (im progressed enough on my own)... So I think I'm just gonna give in and have it! Why be in pain if I dont have to be especially if I'll probably give in to the epidural anways.. might as well take it from the get-go! Just not thrilled about having a big ol' needle in my back! ugh!
The doc expects to have a baby by 5pm.. so we'll see what happens!!
I dont know about visitors.. I dont really want a visitor during labor, thats for sure. I told the nurses no visitors and no phone calls during labor. And after she's born I'll just have to see how I feel. I'm thinking maybe the next day would be best? I dunno.. Kevin will be making phone calls once shes born and I'm sure I'll know more about how i feel then and he can tell people its okay to come down or to wait or whatever!
So HOPEFULLY NO C-SECTION! And hopefully I'll be released Saturday evening from the hospital.. but I doubt we'll be up for Easter with the family.. but ya never know!
We went to babies r us tonight and I bought her a "my first Easter" onesie and I bought "What to expect the first year" and I bought "babies first year Calendar".. WooHoo HAHA...
My headache wont leave (from last night) I think its a caffeine headache.. and I have nothing but tylenol to take :( so I'm dealing with that, plus being scared to death, and being freaked out by everything.. Kevin is just happy as can be.. I'm like OMG KILL ME! hahhaah
I'll be glad when she's in my arms and this is over with so I dont have to be scared anymore! hahha.. I wish her room was TOTALLY finished.. (its not!) UGH.. hopefully wednesday we'll get it finished up atleast more then it is now! Its all the decorative fun part that needs to be done but I Just dont have the energy to get it done on my own.. and kevin is a boy so decorative parts arent important to him!
So thats where we stand!!! SO SCARED! :P
Went to my appointment this morning.. they did my biophysical profile ultrasound (I have atleast one a week!)... and Baby V was bouncy and doing well! She did her practice breaths fine and the umbilical cord blood pressure was good.
They took measurements today since the doc pretty much assumed we'd be inducing this week anyways... Baby V is about 7 pounds now (just short of 7) but that is just a guestimate! and she's still measuring behind developmentally wise but I think only like a week behind or something (not positive on that).. but shes now in the 32nd percentile (50 percentile is ideal) but she went from the 9th, to the 8th, to the 23rd or something? then to the 32nd so shes doing good!!!! (Percentile means shes bigger then 32% of fetuses her age)
Stacy, my ultrasound tech said baby seems LONG! Her head is WAY low and her butt is WAY high.. and her job is just ultrasounds so I'm sure she knows what she's looking at! But, I am 5'10 and I guess on mom's side I have uncles who are like 6'7!!! (mom is adopted!)... So I'm hoping shes tall just for the fact that her carseat has 2 settings in size and not 3, so if shes short she might be too short for her car seat and thats one more thing for me to worry about :P hahhahah. WORRY WORT.. seriously!
So FINALLY i saw my OB.. Seriously this is the longest wait to see her ever! Usually I'm in there within like 15 minutes, but today I think it was about 45 minutes and I REALLY wanted to see her cuz I wanted to know what we were gonna do.. so I was very impatient and I'm getting quite big so its really uncomfortable to sit there.. I felt like I couldnt breathe!
Doc came in and asked "so are we inducing this week?" and I said YES. haha.. I really wanted her born on the 7th cuz thats my lucky number and hey, if I can pick a date why not get a number i want HAHA.. but she asked "tuesday or thursday" and I chickened out and said thursday (the 9th) WHich is Barbara's bday and cousin Jeremy's bday! hahah.. So we'll add another one to the list i guess!
I have to be there at 5am on thursday morning! I SO DONT DO MORNINGS! HAHAHAAH... I hate the hospital but I was kinda hoping to be admitted the night before so I'm already there in the morning! Sounds dumb i know.. So we gotta leave here by 4:30am to get there on time.. I dont know if its better to wake up the last minute and just GO or get up early and wake myself up and be nervous for who knows how long! hahah
I'm thankful I have some Ambien from before pregnancy (just found out I could have been taking it this whole time!) hahah.. but I'm definately taking one the night before so maybe I'll get a good nights sleep! Who knows!!
I am quite progressed on my own, so the doc said I may not even make it to thursday! She said baby's really like to come once an induction has been scheduled too! hahah.. Hopefully she'll just hold off till thursday.. itll make life easier i guess.
Oh, and the baby is facing my spine (Like she's supposed to be!) We learned in class when they're facing the other way you get back labor and thats supposed to hurt a lot! So she seems to be doing everything right on her end :) Good Girl! hahah..
I am going to take the epidural tho.. Kinda disappointing but the doc said shes going to have to break my water more then likely and with the pitocin, its going to be more painful then if I were to go into labor naturally! So she said I can have the epidural right when i get there if i want (im progressed enough on my own)... So I think I'm just gonna give in and have it! Why be in pain if I dont have to be especially if I'll probably give in to the epidural anways.. might as well take it from the get-go! Just not thrilled about having a big ol' needle in my back! ugh!
The doc expects to have a baby by 5pm.. so we'll see what happens!!
I dont know about visitors.. I dont really want a visitor during labor, thats for sure. I told the nurses no visitors and no phone calls during labor. And after she's born I'll just have to see how I feel. I'm thinking maybe the next day would be best? I dunno.. Kevin will be making phone calls once shes born and I'm sure I'll know more about how i feel then and he can tell people its okay to come down or to wait or whatever!
So HOPEFULLY NO C-SECTION! And hopefully I'll be released Saturday evening from the hospital.. but I doubt we'll be up for Easter with the family.. but ya never know!
We went to babies r us tonight and I bought her a "my first Easter" onesie and I bought "What to expect the first year" and I bought "babies first year Calendar".. WooHoo HAHA...
My headache wont leave (from last night) I think its a caffeine headache.. and I have nothing but tylenol to take :( so I'm dealing with that, plus being scared to death, and being freaked out by everything.. Kevin is just happy as can be.. I'm like OMG KILL ME! hahhaah
I'll be glad when she's in my arms and this is over with so I dont have to be scared anymore! hahha.. I wish her room was TOTALLY finished.. (its not!) UGH.. hopefully wednesday we'll get it finished up atleast more then it is now! Its all the decorative fun part that needs to be done but I Just dont have the energy to get it done on my own.. and kevin is a boy so decorative parts arent important to him!
So thats where we stand!!! SO SCARED! :P
Sunday, April 5, 2009
I so don't know anything about a baby!
As if it isnt bad enough that the last baby I held was my nephew Jack, who is now .. 2 1/2?? And I held him so briefly because I was afraid I would break him. I don't know how any of this baby stuff works! I was really hoping in class I'd learn something. But generally.. I'm still pretty lost!
Ive put so much concentration on pregnancy and learning everything I could, now I'm going to have a baby in less then 2 weeks and I dont know much about how to take care of HER! And lets face it, times have changed.. so calling my mom up and asking her is pointless! Thats like reading a 30 year old weather report.. its kinda not gonna apply to me much!
Like, I didnt know there was a time frame when you should or should not take the baby out after birth? I just read on a pregnancy group someone asking how long you should wait till you take her out in the public. I had no clue it mattered! I figured as soon as you feel comfortable. But the answers were from 5 weeks to 3 days. LOL.. So.. I'll ask in the hospital!
I don't even know what shots she gets when. Like, should I wait till she has certain shots till she goes out in public? Can she be taken to a family event like Easter when shes only days old? How long will she have to wait till Kevin can show her off at work (He's really excited about doing that!).. Etc!!!!
I was stupid and when I went to that "Just Between Friends" consignment sale thing, I saw many books for sale. And I wanted the "what to expect the first year" or whatever.. and it was only $3 or so? But I was a dumby and I didnt bother buying it. Not sure what I was thinking! So I think I might go buy that tomorrow so I can start reading a little and have some clue what to do with my daughter!
This is going to be quite the experience! I can't tell you the last diaper I've ever changed... I havent even asked Kevin.. I'm scared to hear his answer :) I dont know when to powder them or put diaper rash stuff on them or .. eh! My mom explained bathing to me the other day.. Didnt know much about that either! I konw shes supposed to wear one layer of clothes more then I do. But like I told Kevin the other day, I"m the idiot that wears shorts and flip flops outside to realize its 40 degree's.. So yeah, I worry that I'm gonna be stupid in that department too! HAHA..
Everyone says this stuff comes naturally.. I certainly hope it does.. but in the meantime, I think I will go get me some books to read! :)
Kevin did buy me a book for xmas.. (It pays to leave Parenting books and Redbook in his bathroom cuz he reads them and goes out and buys me stuff he finds in there!) HAHA. The book is "12 Simple Secrets Real Moms Know" I havent had a chance to even start reading it yet but I think its more of an emotional guide to being a good mommy.. and I guess it touches a lot on "know-it-all" mothers who are going to try to give me their unsolicited advise and how to deal with what they say in a nice manner and go about yer day :) HAHA.
I dont mind advise, but as with most things in life, I take what I need and leave the rest!!!! ANd just because someone gives me advise, doesn't mean I'm not going to go online and read up on it on my own before I apply it! Thats me!
And yeah, I may get made fun of because I follow all the rules and trends.. but ya know, id rather be safe then sorry! (I get made fun of a lot now because I try my hardest not to eat lunch meat because you can get a bacteria from it listeria or something? and it can make baby sick or even cause death) Yeah, the chances of me getting the listeria probably arent very high. But they say you shouldnt eat it.. so I dont! Ive been told I need to stop reading online and stop following all the fads.. but ya know, I would rather NOT eat lunch meat for 9 months then find out I did get some odd bacteria disease and cause problems for Victoria. Better safe then sorry.. and I think I can live without Subway! HAHA...
The past month or so my sleeping has been different. All thru the pregnancy I wake up around 3am wanting a full on meal and baby Victoria is bouncing around having a party.. but the past few weeks its now 4am. And I'm not always as hungry, but I definately want something to eat.. and she's not as bouncy anymore (shes getting bigger tho so less bounce effects!) hahah.. But I'm like, "what happened to 3am?" hahha before it was 3-4:30am now I'm on 4-5:30am.. Not too fond of this time change!
I wonder what she will be like when she's born.. if she'll be a night person like me, or a morning person like kevin.. I hope shes a night person! I so don't do mornings! ANd she does GREAT on her late afternoon evening tests.. and she sleeps thru her morning tests.. so maybe thats a good sign!! Maybe that girl will let me sleep in! (I can wish right?) Id much rather be up all night long and sleep all day long then visa versa! Kevin has made me learn to sleep a little better.. I now am in bed before Midnight most nights. When I lived in California I didnt go to bed till atleast 3-5am! Like, Midnight to sleep? You've got to be kidding me! ANd lately, Ive been going to bed even as early as 10pm cuz I'm so tired!
I'm getting excited! I keep reading all these birth stories on my pregnancy groups and I cant help but to cry and get more and more excited.. and to see all the baby pictures.. awe! So cute! Plus, its like, Ive been chatting with these girls since August, so we've all become friends and some of them have helped me out A LOT with stuff! So its really exciting to see everyone having their babies! I think so far 42 of them have been born from our April group! (some made their apperance in March!) I cant wait till I get to post my birth story on there and show off pictures of my baby girl too!!! I think everyone is rooting for me after my break down last week over the whole induction deal! Everyone helped me thru that.. which was nice.. nice to know people care!
Okay.. its 5:27am.. I think I am going to go back to sleep now! My Belley dog is passed out in her kennel next to me and she looks so comfy.. I just chased Pigeon/Princess outta the bassinet.. so I think all is taken care of in the living room for tonight HAHA.. My pet sitting job is done.. (thats what im really out here doing, I'm not wasting time on the internet.. im checkin up on the animals.. yeah.. thats it!)
Back to Sleep I go!!!!!!! TTFN!
Ive put so much concentration on pregnancy and learning everything I could, now I'm going to have a baby in less then 2 weeks and I dont know much about how to take care of HER! And lets face it, times have changed.. so calling my mom up and asking her is pointless! Thats like reading a 30 year old weather report.. its kinda not gonna apply to me much!
Like, I didnt know there was a time frame when you should or should not take the baby out after birth? I just read on a pregnancy group someone asking how long you should wait till you take her out in the public. I had no clue it mattered! I figured as soon as you feel comfortable. But the answers were from 5 weeks to 3 days. LOL.. So.. I'll ask in the hospital!
I don't even know what shots she gets when. Like, should I wait till she has certain shots till she goes out in public? Can she be taken to a family event like Easter when shes only days old? How long will she have to wait till Kevin can show her off at work (He's really excited about doing that!).. Etc!!!!
I was stupid and when I went to that "Just Between Friends" consignment sale thing, I saw many books for sale. And I wanted the "what to expect the first year" or whatever.. and it was only $3 or so? But I was a dumby and I didnt bother buying it. Not sure what I was thinking! So I think I might go buy that tomorrow so I can start reading a little and have some clue what to do with my daughter!
This is going to be quite the experience! I can't tell you the last diaper I've ever changed... I havent even asked Kevin.. I'm scared to hear his answer :) I dont know when to powder them or put diaper rash stuff on them or .. eh! My mom explained bathing to me the other day.. Didnt know much about that either! I konw shes supposed to wear one layer of clothes more then I do. But like I told Kevin the other day, I"m the idiot that wears shorts and flip flops outside to realize its 40 degree's.. So yeah, I worry that I'm gonna be stupid in that department too! HAHA..
Everyone says this stuff comes naturally.. I certainly hope it does.. but in the meantime, I think I will go get me some books to read! :)
Kevin did buy me a book for xmas.. (It pays to leave Parenting books and Redbook in his bathroom cuz he reads them and goes out and buys me stuff he finds in there!) HAHA. The book is "12 Simple Secrets Real Moms Know" I havent had a chance to even start reading it yet but I think its more of an emotional guide to being a good mommy.. and I guess it touches a lot on "know-it-all" mothers who are going to try to give me their unsolicited advise and how to deal with what they say in a nice manner and go about yer day :) HAHA.
I dont mind advise, but as with most things in life, I take what I need and leave the rest!!!! ANd just because someone gives me advise, doesn't mean I'm not going to go online and read up on it on my own before I apply it! Thats me!
And yeah, I may get made fun of because I follow all the rules and trends.. but ya know, id rather be safe then sorry! (I get made fun of a lot now because I try my hardest not to eat lunch meat because you can get a bacteria from it listeria or something? and it can make baby sick or even cause death) Yeah, the chances of me getting the listeria probably arent very high. But they say you shouldnt eat it.. so I dont! Ive been told I need to stop reading online and stop following all the fads.. but ya know, I would rather NOT eat lunch meat for 9 months then find out I did get some odd bacteria disease and cause problems for Victoria. Better safe then sorry.. and I think I can live without Subway! HAHA...
The past month or so my sleeping has been different. All thru the pregnancy I wake up around 3am wanting a full on meal and baby Victoria is bouncing around having a party.. but the past few weeks its now 4am. And I'm not always as hungry, but I definately want something to eat.. and she's not as bouncy anymore (shes getting bigger tho so less bounce effects!) hahah.. But I'm like, "what happened to 3am?" hahha before it was 3-4:30am now I'm on 4-5:30am.. Not too fond of this time change!
I wonder what she will be like when she's born.. if she'll be a night person like me, or a morning person like kevin.. I hope shes a night person! I so don't do mornings! ANd she does GREAT on her late afternoon evening tests.. and she sleeps thru her morning tests.. so maybe thats a good sign!! Maybe that girl will let me sleep in! (I can wish right?) Id much rather be up all night long and sleep all day long then visa versa! Kevin has made me learn to sleep a little better.. I now am in bed before Midnight most nights. When I lived in California I didnt go to bed till atleast 3-5am! Like, Midnight to sleep? You've got to be kidding me! ANd lately, Ive been going to bed even as early as 10pm cuz I'm so tired!
I'm getting excited! I keep reading all these birth stories on my pregnancy groups and I cant help but to cry and get more and more excited.. and to see all the baby pictures.. awe! So cute! Plus, its like, Ive been chatting with these girls since August, so we've all become friends and some of them have helped me out A LOT with stuff! So its really exciting to see everyone having their babies! I think so far 42 of them have been born from our April group! (some made their apperance in March!) I cant wait till I get to post my birth story on there and show off pictures of my baby girl too!!! I think everyone is rooting for me after my break down last week over the whole induction deal! Everyone helped me thru that.. which was nice.. nice to know people care!
Okay.. its 5:27am.. I think I am going to go back to sleep now! My Belley dog is passed out in her kennel next to me and she looks so comfy.. I just chased Pigeon/Princess outta the bassinet.. so I think all is taken care of in the living room for tonight HAHA.. My pet sitting job is done.. (thats what im really out here doing, I'm not wasting time on the internet.. im checkin up on the animals.. yeah.. thats it!)
Back to Sleep I go!!!!!!! TTFN!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
We made the Tulsa World!!!
Kevin wrote an appreciation letter to the Tulsa World and they actually published it... We're gonna put the original in Victoria's baby book since its cuz of her :)
He was trying to send the letter to the fire Marshall or someone but none of their websites worked, so hopefully the firemen and their bosses saw this article so they know they got some appreciation :)
http://www.tulsaworld.com/opinion/article.aspx?subjectid=62&articleid=20090323_7_A11_spanc60111&archive=yes
Enjoy :)
He was trying to send the letter to the fire Marshall or someone but none of their websites worked, so hopefully the firemen and their bosses saw this article so they know they got some appreciation :)
http://www.tulsaworld.com/opinion/article.aspx?subjectid=62&articleid=20090323_7_A11_spanc60111&archive=yes
Enjoy :)
Update - Contraction Test and Plans!
I feel like all I ever do is "Update"... between emailing our Mom's, our friend's, my personal blogs, etc.. it just seems like every email / blog title is "update" I get to the point where I just dont even remember who I tell what to anymore! Thats why I'm trying to just get everyone to read on here so I dont have to do all these personal updates but then *I* am bad about doing that! Bleh!
Okay.. Thursday we had another lovely contraction stress test. This one took us a total of 3 hours I think? It was horribly long! We didn't even have time to go from the test to lunch and home.. we had to go from the test, to eating lunch while driving to my therapists appointment and Kevin just had to sit in the waiting room (we thought we'd have time that I could atleast drop him off at home.. NOPE!) hahah..
Ive had a rough few days.. I kinda had to come to terms with the fact that I'm more then likely not going to get to have a natural drug free hypnobirth! I'm probably not going to get to breast feed Victoria for long (if at all).. and everything I WANTED probably is not going to happen. So.. I need to just mentally prepare myself for dealing with what has been handed to me.. And if anyone know's me well, I do NOT take disappointment very well!! (who does?) but I'm a pretty big cry baby when things don't work out how I planned them in my head!
I think my bad days got set off by getting my medication list from my doctor saying most all my meds are not recommended during breast feeding. That and with the constant talk of induction.. it all just finally made me say "screw it" (not exactly the words I was "thinking" but this is a nice happy family blog spot! HAHAHA)
So after crying quite a bit Wednesday night I was pretty down come Thursday morning (the morning of my contraction test)... So when I was laying in the bed in triage at St. John's.. the nurse asked if I wanted to do the test naturally like last week, or have the Pitocin drip. I said Pitocin drip. That got Kevin to stop reading his newspaper.. He looked at me and was like, "are you sure?" and I said "yup!" I think thats when he realized I'm giving up on things and am getting depressed.
The nurse said she had to call my doctor to make sure that the Pitocin was okay to give me and then we'll get started. I just wonder what Dr. Noland thought when that nurse called her and told her that. Because I have been SO die hard "NO PITOCIN" this whole time! My "birth plan" says "no pitocin" and "No induction" all over it! And she even commented last monday about how she had to explain to the nurses about my last test that I will want the natural way not the drug way and they were really confused because no one has ever wanted it that way I guess *shrug*
I guess I kinda wanted the Pitocin cuz I know its a small amount and that would let *ME* know how Victoria will react to the drug (Pitocin is a synthetic version of Oxytocin which is what your body naturally releases when in labor, but it can cause horrible contractions, stress on you and the baby, and can make the labor worse and can put you at a higher risk for a c-section)... SO.. yeah.. I figured they'll just give me a little "Pit" and it will give me an idea how she reacts and how bad it hurts!
So I laid there for awhile and they finally came in with like 10 bags of stuff (all the IV equipment and needles and this and that!) And she said they're gonna take my blood before the IV so just in case I need to stay (this test can send you into full on labor!) they'll have blood already for me.. and if I dont need to stay, they'll just throw the blood away.. So i was like "whatever" hahah..
I don't like needles! Unless I'm getting pretty jewelry out of it.. I dont do needles (bodypiercings HAHHA) So she took my blood, and somewhere between the blood taking and the IV inserting I felt cold on my hand and sure enough, blood was dripping all over my hand, on the floor, on the bed.. I'm just like Oh LORD! YUCK! The thing I hate more then needles, BLOOD!
Finally they got me set up and going.. I felt like they were pumping me full of Heroin or something. That is how incredibly guilty and sad I was feeling. I felt like the worst Mommy in the world to be putting something in my body that could be causing distress on my baby girl. I just laid there trying not to cry and trying to just remember "lots of people use this drug and they're fine!" But it just wasnt a happy thing for me.. I truely felt absolutely horrible about this decision but it was too late to turn back now!
I laid there what seemed like forever and I was feeling the contractions and they were a lot worse then they are naturally.. so that wasnt exactly fun. But the stupid monitor wasnt showing my contractions.. I was just like WHAT!?!? So the nurse finally said the monitor is screwed up and its not detecting them right (DUH!) and long story short they got it working fine FINALLY...
I passed the test, Victoria passed the test (she was all bouncy and happy that day!) and we were finally told we could go home.. I had contractions most the day after that tho and all thru the night.
The doctors have been mentioning induction to me since Early March if not before that. ANd I have been saying "NO"... No one would give me a reason as to WHY to induce.. other then "She's small and can survive on her own outside so there is no reason to keep her in longer". Well.. face it, there are a lot of doctors out there who are in this for the money and there are alot of people in this for conveinience.. and most people I know, would LOVE to be induced! Not me.. I'm a firm believer she'll come out when she's damn well ready to!
However, it was stressed, regardless of what I want, she will NOT go past her due date.. PERIOD! Which is April 16th which is like, really quickly approaching!
That being said.. Dr. Noland asks every week "still no induction?" and I tell her "nope!" and even during my contraction stress test, the nurse asked if i wanted to be induced while there.. I really thought about it.. and I told her no.. I just dont feel mentally prepared for that to happen right that second! And kevin agreed, we aren't ready for that on that particular day!
Well.. yeah, so no doc has given me what I will take as a valid reason to induce. Well the nurse at the hospital told me she has the same blood clotting disorder they found out I have. And she told us the reason doctors want to induce is because I can form a blood clot in the umbilical cord which could cut off oxygen and everything else to Victoria and she could possibly die from it and somehow I can cause her to have a blood clot as well. Kevin looked at her and said "thank you, you are the FIRST person to explain this to us!"
Seriously, NO ONE has told us this.. NO ONE. ANd I havent found much online about this blood disorder and pregnancy other then I'm lucky I made it past my first trimester!
So this puts a whole new spin on life. Its gone from my personal feelings on induction to, this could cause me to kill my child if something went wrong! And I'm sorry, no personal feelings on anything is worth my child's life! I dont care what it is!
So I pretty much told Kevin, we HAVE to induce! I mean, com'on.. we have to! Not to mention the fact that we only have exactly 2 weeks (from last thursday) for her to come out on her own.. and I'm not "ready" yet physically "down there". So .. yeah.. It seems to me that induction is going to occur anyhow.. so we might as well just get it over with now.. specially knowing something could seriously happen to her and after my emergency trip to the hospital on April 1st. We just need to do it!
So we got out our calendars and started picking baby birthday's HAHA.. We originally wanted to go for the 14th or so.. but I think after hearing that information, it needs to happen THIS WEEK!
I would love for her to be born on the 7th.. my lucky number.. but thats like, REALLY quick! hahha.. Because from what we learned in class, they'll probably have me come in the night before to give me something to make me "ready" physically and then the next morning begin the pitocin drip and get labor going and then have her! So that would put me in the hospital Monday night (the 6th).. EEK!
SO, I'm gonna ask Dr. Noland on Monday when I see her if there is any way we can be induced maybe on the 9th and have her on the 10th. Or even go in the 8th and have her on the 9th. It doesnt exactly work into our schedule as we wanted (Kev has Wed, Thurs, Fri off work so we thought we'd try to make it on days he already is scheduled to be off so its less stuff to worry about) but we can't have everything our way :) So he said just get it planned and he'll figure out his work schedule later! (the 7th is tuesday.. so we figured if i went in monday night, we'd have the full rest of the week.. thats what Im meaning to say)....
Anyhow.. We'll see what the doc says.. I don't know what days she does inductions .. I do know shes in surgery a lot on Thursdays.. so I'll see what she says. I'm sure I'll be updating the blog come Monday when I find out!
More then likely, this time next week we'll have a little baby in our arms! I woke up at 4am today mad cuz I didnt want to be woken up (gotta love potty breaks all night long) and I was thinking.. if this is bad, in a week, its going to be every 2 hours or less! This is nothing.. I should be loving this! My problem is I appreciate sleep more then anything in this world I think. It truley is my favorite hobby! HAHAH.. so knwing I'm going to be losing sleep soon is like OH MY GOD! Seriously.. thats like taking my oxygen away! Horrible! hahah.
SO yeah... Possibly in one week Miss Tori will be with us.. She'll get to have Easter! (I bought her an Easter basket and put a little pink bunny in it, 4 pacifiers and some hair bows.. yer kinda limited to Easter stuff when it comes to an infant! HAHA)...
It would be awesome if we had her before Easter and were already outta the hospital and feeling well enough to go to Easter lunch with the family. But not knowing when she'll be born, how *I* will feel, I mean, if I have a c-section, I'm probably not going to want to be out and about much! Who know how I'll feel mentally.. there is just so much "what if" and wondering how things are going. So at this time we declined the invitation and if things change then we'll see if they can hold us a spot HAHA.. and if not then we'll spend Easter at home as a family together! And if Tori doesnt get to meet us before Easter, then Kevin will be working and I will be enjoying my beauty sleep possibly HAHA. We'll just have to play it by ear and see what happens!!
Its now 5:45am and my bed is calling me. I have more updates regarding my new therapist I met (I actually like him.. amazing!!!) and about whats going to happen with me medication wise after the baby (Im going to attempt no meds and see how I go.. taking it day by day.. literally!)... and all that stuff.. as you can tell, I can turn a simple statement "I dropped a book" into a 5 page story on how the book fell and how it looked as falling, etc! I'm umm.. "long winded" so yeah.. thats the Cliff Notes version of the therapist info :)
Other then that, I am literatlly scared to death of this baby girl! I am scared I'll be a bad mommy, I am scared I wont be able to handle this, I am scared that Im not going to do things right, I am scared knowing its just me! I dont have much physical support out here! WHen Kevin is at work, its me and Tori against the world! Yeah.. Me = SCARED!!!!!!!!
The quicker this little girl can make her appearence, the less I'll have to stress myself out over because I will be in the NOW and not in the freak out zone of "what am i going to do?"
Hopefully I'll have some pics to post soon... Kevin put the bassinet together tonight... Its getting more and more real by the day!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay.. Thursday we had another lovely contraction stress test. This one took us a total of 3 hours I think? It was horribly long! We didn't even have time to go from the test to lunch and home.. we had to go from the test, to eating lunch while driving to my therapists appointment and Kevin just had to sit in the waiting room (we thought we'd have time that I could atleast drop him off at home.. NOPE!) hahah..
Ive had a rough few days.. I kinda had to come to terms with the fact that I'm more then likely not going to get to have a natural drug free hypnobirth! I'm probably not going to get to breast feed Victoria for long (if at all).. and everything I WANTED probably is not going to happen. So.. I need to just mentally prepare myself for dealing with what has been handed to me.. And if anyone know's me well, I do NOT take disappointment very well!! (who does?) but I'm a pretty big cry baby when things don't work out how I planned them in my head!
I think my bad days got set off by getting my medication list from my doctor saying most all my meds are not recommended during breast feeding. That and with the constant talk of induction.. it all just finally made me say "screw it" (not exactly the words I was "thinking" but this is a nice happy family blog spot! HAHAHA)
So after crying quite a bit Wednesday night I was pretty down come Thursday morning (the morning of my contraction test)... So when I was laying in the bed in triage at St. John's.. the nurse asked if I wanted to do the test naturally like last week, or have the Pitocin drip. I said Pitocin drip. That got Kevin to stop reading his newspaper.. He looked at me and was like, "are you sure?" and I said "yup!" I think thats when he realized I'm giving up on things and am getting depressed.
The nurse said she had to call my doctor to make sure that the Pitocin was okay to give me and then we'll get started. I just wonder what Dr. Noland thought when that nurse called her and told her that. Because I have been SO die hard "NO PITOCIN" this whole time! My "birth plan" says "no pitocin" and "No induction" all over it! And she even commented last monday about how she had to explain to the nurses about my last test that I will want the natural way not the drug way and they were really confused because no one has ever wanted it that way I guess *shrug*
I guess I kinda wanted the Pitocin cuz I know its a small amount and that would let *ME* know how Victoria will react to the drug (Pitocin is a synthetic version of Oxytocin which is what your body naturally releases when in labor, but it can cause horrible contractions, stress on you and the baby, and can make the labor worse and can put you at a higher risk for a c-section)... SO.. yeah.. I figured they'll just give me a little "Pit" and it will give me an idea how she reacts and how bad it hurts!
So I laid there for awhile and they finally came in with like 10 bags of stuff (all the IV equipment and needles and this and that!) And she said they're gonna take my blood before the IV so just in case I need to stay (this test can send you into full on labor!) they'll have blood already for me.. and if I dont need to stay, they'll just throw the blood away.. So i was like "whatever" hahah..
I don't like needles! Unless I'm getting pretty jewelry out of it.. I dont do needles (bodypiercings HAHHA) So she took my blood, and somewhere between the blood taking and the IV inserting I felt cold on my hand and sure enough, blood was dripping all over my hand, on the floor, on the bed.. I'm just like Oh LORD! YUCK! The thing I hate more then needles, BLOOD!
Finally they got me set up and going.. I felt like they were pumping me full of Heroin or something. That is how incredibly guilty and sad I was feeling. I felt like the worst Mommy in the world to be putting something in my body that could be causing distress on my baby girl. I just laid there trying not to cry and trying to just remember "lots of people use this drug and they're fine!" But it just wasnt a happy thing for me.. I truely felt absolutely horrible about this decision but it was too late to turn back now!
I laid there what seemed like forever and I was feeling the contractions and they were a lot worse then they are naturally.. so that wasnt exactly fun. But the stupid monitor wasnt showing my contractions.. I was just like WHAT!?!? So the nurse finally said the monitor is screwed up and its not detecting them right (DUH!) and long story short they got it working fine FINALLY...
I passed the test, Victoria passed the test (she was all bouncy and happy that day!) and we were finally told we could go home.. I had contractions most the day after that tho and all thru the night.
The doctors have been mentioning induction to me since Early March if not before that. ANd I have been saying "NO"... No one would give me a reason as to WHY to induce.. other then "She's small and can survive on her own outside so there is no reason to keep her in longer". Well.. face it, there are a lot of doctors out there who are in this for the money and there are alot of people in this for conveinience.. and most people I know, would LOVE to be induced! Not me.. I'm a firm believer she'll come out when she's damn well ready to!
However, it was stressed, regardless of what I want, she will NOT go past her due date.. PERIOD! Which is April 16th which is like, really quickly approaching!
That being said.. Dr. Noland asks every week "still no induction?" and I tell her "nope!" and even during my contraction stress test, the nurse asked if i wanted to be induced while there.. I really thought about it.. and I told her no.. I just dont feel mentally prepared for that to happen right that second! And kevin agreed, we aren't ready for that on that particular day!
Well.. yeah, so no doc has given me what I will take as a valid reason to induce. Well the nurse at the hospital told me she has the same blood clotting disorder they found out I have. And she told us the reason doctors want to induce is because I can form a blood clot in the umbilical cord which could cut off oxygen and everything else to Victoria and she could possibly die from it and somehow I can cause her to have a blood clot as well. Kevin looked at her and said "thank you, you are the FIRST person to explain this to us!"
Seriously, NO ONE has told us this.. NO ONE. ANd I havent found much online about this blood disorder and pregnancy other then I'm lucky I made it past my first trimester!
So this puts a whole new spin on life. Its gone from my personal feelings on induction to, this could cause me to kill my child if something went wrong! And I'm sorry, no personal feelings on anything is worth my child's life! I dont care what it is!
So I pretty much told Kevin, we HAVE to induce! I mean, com'on.. we have to! Not to mention the fact that we only have exactly 2 weeks (from last thursday) for her to come out on her own.. and I'm not "ready" yet physically "down there". So .. yeah.. It seems to me that induction is going to occur anyhow.. so we might as well just get it over with now.. specially knowing something could seriously happen to her and after my emergency trip to the hospital on April 1st. We just need to do it!
So we got out our calendars and started picking baby birthday's HAHA.. We originally wanted to go for the 14th or so.. but I think after hearing that information, it needs to happen THIS WEEK!
I would love for her to be born on the 7th.. my lucky number.. but thats like, REALLY quick! hahha.. Because from what we learned in class, they'll probably have me come in the night before to give me something to make me "ready" physically and then the next morning begin the pitocin drip and get labor going and then have her! So that would put me in the hospital Monday night (the 6th).. EEK!
SO, I'm gonna ask Dr. Noland on Monday when I see her if there is any way we can be induced maybe on the 9th and have her on the 10th. Or even go in the 8th and have her on the 9th. It doesnt exactly work into our schedule as we wanted (Kev has Wed, Thurs, Fri off work so we thought we'd try to make it on days he already is scheduled to be off so its less stuff to worry about) but we can't have everything our way :) So he said just get it planned and he'll figure out his work schedule later! (the 7th is tuesday.. so we figured if i went in monday night, we'd have the full rest of the week.. thats what Im meaning to say)....
Anyhow.. We'll see what the doc says.. I don't know what days she does inductions .. I do know shes in surgery a lot on Thursdays.. so I'll see what she says. I'm sure I'll be updating the blog come Monday when I find out!
More then likely, this time next week we'll have a little baby in our arms! I woke up at 4am today mad cuz I didnt want to be woken up (gotta love potty breaks all night long) and I was thinking.. if this is bad, in a week, its going to be every 2 hours or less! This is nothing.. I should be loving this! My problem is I appreciate sleep more then anything in this world I think. It truley is my favorite hobby! HAHAH.. so knwing I'm going to be losing sleep soon is like OH MY GOD! Seriously.. thats like taking my oxygen away! Horrible! hahah.
SO yeah... Possibly in one week Miss Tori will be with us.. She'll get to have Easter! (I bought her an Easter basket and put a little pink bunny in it, 4 pacifiers and some hair bows.. yer kinda limited to Easter stuff when it comes to an infant! HAHA)...
It would be awesome if we had her before Easter and were already outta the hospital and feeling well enough to go to Easter lunch with the family. But not knowing when she'll be born, how *I* will feel, I mean, if I have a c-section, I'm probably not going to want to be out and about much! Who know how I'll feel mentally.. there is just so much "what if" and wondering how things are going. So at this time we declined the invitation and if things change then we'll see if they can hold us a spot HAHA.. and if not then we'll spend Easter at home as a family together! And if Tori doesnt get to meet us before Easter, then Kevin will be working and I will be enjoying my beauty sleep possibly HAHA. We'll just have to play it by ear and see what happens!!
Its now 5:45am and my bed is calling me. I have more updates regarding my new therapist I met (I actually like him.. amazing!!!) and about whats going to happen with me medication wise after the baby (Im going to attempt no meds and see how I go.. taking it day by day.. literally!)... and all that stuff.. as you can tell, I can turn a simple statement "I dropped a book" into a 5 page story on how the book fell and how it looked as falling, etc! I'm umm.. "long winded" so yeah.. thats the Cliff Notes version of the therapist info :)
Other then that, I am literatlly scared to death of this baby girl! I am scared I'll be a bad mommy, I am scared I wont be able to handle this, I am scared that Im not going to do things right, I am scared knowing its just me! I dont have much physical support out here! WHen Kevin is at work, its me and Tori against the world! Yeah.. Me = SCARED!!!!!!!!
The quicker this little girl can make her appearence, the less I'll have to stress myself out over because I will be in the NOW and not in the freak out zone of "what am i going to do?"
Hopefully I'll have some pics to post soon... Kevin put the bassinet together tonight... Its getting more and more real by the day!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah! its so much fun to OD on Sugar!!!!
You must love my stupidity! I push myself CONSTANTLY with my sugar intake. I never understood WHY you cant have sugar after gastric bypass surgery but this website makes it pretty darn clear!
http://searchwarp.com/swa314640.htm
I was SO GOOD right after surgery about not pushing my sugar! I mean the first time I started to feel sick from sugar was a glass of sugar free apple juice a little while after my surgery.. and it made me SICK!
I was o good about it though, I would check the sugar content of everything, wouldnt drink soda, nothing.. I was an angel. Then as I do with everything, I started pushing my limits a little more and more..
And where did that get me? Berry Cobbler and Caffeine free Pepsi at 4:30am! And boy do I feel it! My heart is RACING and as Kevin likes to put it, I'm "Huffing and Puffing" (which is why I'm blogging and not going back to sleep!) I feel like CRAP! HAHA.. I do it to myself tho! So ya cant feel sorry for me! I probably make myself sick once every 2 weeks.. I just cant control myself I guess. Its worse now that I'm pregnant because its a craving more then a "i want" so I kinda go for it! HAHA. When I get myself back up to 300 pounds I can re-read these and remind myself what an IDIOT I am!
I need to get back on track after Victoria is born. No more sugar and junk food! Ive pretty much ate anything I wanted while being pregnant.. I didnt hold back much! And the scale shows it! Once she's born tho, its back to light and fat free everything! No more full calories!!!
Im gonna make a new blog that is Victoria oriented.. I just had to share my miserable feeling! hahah
http://searchwarp.com/swa314640.htm
I was SO GOOD right after surgery about not pushing my sugar! I mean the first time I started to feel sick from sugar was a glass of sugar free apple juice a little while after my surgery.. and it made me SICK!
I was o good about it though, I would check the sugar content of everything, wouldnt drink soda, nothing.. I was an angel. Then as I do with everything, I started pushing my limits a little more and more..
And where did that get me? Berry Cobbler and Caffeine free Pepsi at 4:30am! And boy do I feel it! My heart is RACING and as Kevin likes to put it, I'm "Huffing and Puffing" (which is why I'm blogging and not going back to sleep!) I feel like CRAP! HAHA.. I do it to myself tho! So ya cant feel sorry for me! I probably make myself sick once every 2 weeks.. I just cant control myself I guess. Its worse now that I'm pregnant because its a craving more then a "i want" so I kinda go for it! HAHA. When I get myself back up to 300 pounds I can re-read these and remind myself what an IDIOT I am!
I need to get back on track after Victoria is born. No more sugar and junk food! Ive pretty much ate anything I wanted while being pregnant.. I didnt hold back much! And the scale shows it! Once she's born tho, its back to light and fat free everything! No more full calories!!!
Im gonna make a new blog that is Victoria oriented.. I just had to share my miserable feeling! hahah
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
April Fool's Scare!
Well... All day on the 31st of March I pretty much slept... (seems the story of my life!) but when I was awake, I didnt feel bouncy baby bouncing much. Kinda concerned me but I just thought Id give her time.
I told Kevin we might have to go to the hospital if I dont feel her soon! So we went to eat and I thought I might have felt her but I couldnt tell for sure. So when we came home from dinner I had a piece of banana creme pie (sugar gets her moving!) and she still didnt move. SO.. I drank some cold drink.. which makes her move too.. still nothing.. SO i decided to go lay down in bed, she tends to party when its sleepy time.. Still.. NOTHING.. so I tried that stupid heartbeat doppler type deal (just one you buy at the store, not a good one or anything)... and Ive never really been able to pick up her heartbeat on it anyways but thought id give it a chance.. still, nothing!
So I thought its better to be safe then sorry! So I started getting dressed and told Kevin we need to go to St. Johns! So we were off to the hospital. I dont think we really said a word the whole way there! Straight down Lewis street.. speed limit is like 45/35, apparently I was almost to 60 (I didnt know it, kevin told me later! HAHA) He said i looked too concentrated on my driving to say anything!
We got to the Labor and delivery area at the hospital.. luckily its not a busy area.. so they got me right into triage, had me put on a robe and lay down... took my blood pressure, she asked "is your blood pressure normally good?" and I'm all "yeah" it was like 190 over something when they took it.. LOL.
She then said shes gonna put the monitor on my belly but warned us she might not get it right away (I guess so we dont freak) and she put it on me and immediately we started to hear "thump thump thump" we both let out a sigh of relief!!! I've never been so happy to hear that thump! Her heart rate was fine and was actually normal! THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
They kept me on the monitor for an hour total. I swear, she had the perfect "non-stress test".. I always told the docs, if they'd schedule me for like midnight or later for my NST, they'd get great results! I wasnt joking! Its like the best test ive ever seen from her! And i have those tests once a week! Even the nurse said she looks awesome!!!!
They took my blood pressure 3 times and it just kept going down and down and I think when we left it was like 117 over something.. whatever, it was "normal" She's not even born yet and she's already gonna give us a heartattack!
So after last night.. I'm more open to the idea of induction! I just want her out so I know she's safe!!! That was really really scary thinking something could be wrong with her!
Today she's throwing a party tho.. bouncing all around having a good ol' time! Its weird now shes bouncy one day and lays low the next, then has bounce fest the next day! I dont get that girl!
We had to run some errons today.. but after we ate, we went grocery shopping.. that was horrible, i was SO FULL from lunch and since shes so high up now, she pushes my insides to my lungs and makes it hard to breath! So I was huffing and puffing thru the store, plus I was having contractions on top of it.. so I was tired, huffy, puffy, in pain, just wanting to get the food and go! I told Kevin "make this quick" luckily I made it! I think next time I'm gonna get that motorized skooter... I was really thinking about it today, but didnt want to be a wimp... screw that, next time i'll just be a wimp :P hahhaha.
At the store the people in front of me were talking about cigarettes.. and I think the son said something like "we should stop talking about cigarettes in front of the pregnant lady" or something like that, and she turned to her son and says "she's not pregnant" and the son is like "uh huh!" so she looks at me and goes "are you expecting?" and I'm like "uhh yeah!" and she asked when, and I told her in 2 weeks and she actually told me "wow you are so small" what was she smoking?? HAHA.. seriously! I feel like a HOUSE! Ive always held my weight in my stomach but yeah, never this much weight!!! HAHA.
My OB said I've gained alot of weight in the past few weeks.. (I HAVE) considering I had gastric bypass and my tummy is tiny, I have NO IDEA how i've gained SO MUCH! I wont even say how much I've gained, lets put it this way, its a lot more then whats recommended for someone "normal"....
Dr. Noland said it has to be water weight that ive gained tho! I am just, so incredibly swollen! Ive been extremely swollen since like the first week of March! I didnt realize how bad I had gotten till I saw my pictures from the baby shower! HAHA. And its not going away! My legs, ankles, toes, all are huge! I finally had to take off my wedding ring and promise ring because if I have a c-section they're going to make me take them off and it was next to impossible to get them off now!
On the downside of life, I gave my medical doctor a list of all my medications I was on pre-pregnancy and she mailed it back today with her comments and basically any medication I feel I absolutely need says "not recommended" for breast feeding :( Very disappointing!!! So I don't know what I'm going to do now! Invest in a lot more bottles? Considering we have, umm.. 2! hahahah
I guess I was kinda stupid to even think that Id get to breast feed with my medications.. I just had high hopes!!! I guess I thought that I could go without meds too, but according to my doc I have like an 80% chance of that postpardum depression (YEAH ME!) And I read that a mommy with depression doesnt connect well with her baby which can cause a lot of problems down the line!!!
So... lets recap..
I wanted a natural, drug free birth.. more then likely I'll be induced, meaning I"ll be given Pitocin (which I do NOT want) and that means the pains will be WAY worse, meaning I'll probably give in to an epidural! that is if I dont need a c-section!
I wanted to exclusively breast feed and I wanted to stay OFF all my medications. But.. that's not looking too promising about the meds, and the meds arent looking like they're going to work with breast feeding.
So, the two major things I really wanted outta this child birth experience are being taken away.. not to mention I've been high risk this whole time because of the wonderful blood clotting disorder I found out I had while being pregnant!
OH WELL....
As long as she is born HEALTHY, I DONT CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will get chopped open by the doc, I will bottle feed, I will take my medications like a good little Mommy.. I will do ANYTHING as long as she is just healthy! I won't even COMPLAIN about it all as long as she is healthy! And all this scary crap with the high risk stuff will have been worth it!
After watching one of those stupid Baby shows on discovery channel, I feel pretty darn lucky to even be having my baby girl! They had a lady on there who apparently has the same blood disorder they said I have (that APS or whatever they told me it is .. its in a previous blog).. but she couldnt carry her babies past the first trimester and she'd lose them! So I guess I'm pretty fortunate to begin with!! (she did have the APS much worse then I have it tho!)....
I just realized, its the first of April.. well. I knew that, but I looked at the calendar and went WOW.. she'll be here in 2 weeks! if not sooner! They will NOT let me go past the due date, they dont even want me to go TO the due date... so I'm thinking in less then 2 weeks, she will be here.. how freakin scary is that??? :) HAHA...
I'm still not 100% ready for her.. my apartment is all cluttered, her room still isnt fully finished, all her clothes arent all hung, her sheets arent all put up, her bassinet isnt put together yet... UGH! And I had NO IDEA how much my energy would disappear out of nowhere.. and I mean, nowhere!
I mean, generally, we're ready.. but its not as ready as I wanted to be for when she got here! We'll live I guess :)
If the doc gives me a choice on an induction day, I'm planning on telling her the 14th. (SORRY HILLARY - HAHAHA she wants Victoria to be born on her bday) hahah. *I* want the 7th, but thats kinda like, THIS tuesday! Yeah! HAHA. So we'll see what happens after my doc appointment on Monday!!
This is a longer blog then I intended!
I told Kevin we might have to go to the hospital if I dont feel her soon! So we went to eat and I thought I might have felt her but I couldnt tell for sure. So when we came home from dinner I had a piece of banana creme pie (sugar gets her moving!) and she still didnt move. SO.. I drank some cold drink.. which makes her move too.. still nothing.. SO i decided to go lay down in bed, she tends to party when its sleepy time.. Still.. NOTHING.. so I tried that stupid heartbeat doppler type deal (just one you buy at the store, not a good one or anything)... and Ive never really been able to pick up her heartbeat on it anyways but thought id give it a chance.. still, nothing!
So I thought its better to be safe then sorry! So I started getting dressed and told Kevin we need to go to St. Johns! So we were off to the hospital. I dont think we really said a word the whole way there! Straight down Lewis street.. speed limit is like 45/35, apparently I was almost to 60 (I didnt know it, kevin told me later! HAHA) He said i looked too concentrated on my driving to say anything!
We got to the Labor and delivery area at the hospital.. luckily its not a busy area.. so they got me right into triage, had me put on a robe and lay down... took my blood pressure, she asked "is your blood pressure normally good?" and I'm all "yeah" it was like 190 over something when they took it.. LOL.
She then said shes gonna put the monitor on my belly but warned us she might not get it right away (I guess so we dont freak) and she put it on me and immediately we started to hear "thump thump thump" we both let out a sigh of relief!!! I've never been so happy to hear that thump! Her heart rate was fine and was actually normal! THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
They kept me on the monitor for an hour total. I swear, she had the perfect "non-stress test".. I always told the docs, if they'd schedule me for like midnight or later for my NST, they'd get great results! I wasnt joking! Its like the best test ive ever seen from her! And i have those tests once a week! Even the nurse said she looks awesome!!!!
They took my blood pressure 3 times and it just kept going down and down and I think when we left it was like 117 over something.. whatever, it was "normal" She's not even born yet and she's already gonna give us a heartattack!
So after last night.. I'm more open to the idea of induction! I just want her out so I know she's safe!!! That was really really scary thinking something could be wrong with her!
Today she's throwing a party tho.. bouncing all around having a good ol' time! Its weird now shes bouncy one day and lays low the next, then has bounce fest the next day! I dont get that girl!
We had to run some errons today.. but after we ate, we went grocery shopping.. that was horrible, i was SO FULL from lunch and since shes so high up now, she pushes my insides to my lungs and makes it hard to breath! So I was huffing and puffing thru the store, plus I was having contractions on top of it.. so I was tired, huffy, puffy, in pain, just wanting to get the food and go! I told Kevin "make this quick" luckily I made it! I think next time I'm gonna get that motorized skooter... I was really thinking about it today, but didnt want to be a wimp... screw that, next time i'll just be a wimp :P hahhaha.
At the store the people in front of me were talking about cigarettes.. and I think the son said something like "we should stop talking about cigarettes in front of the pregnant lady" or something like that, and she turned to her son and says "she's not pregnant" and the son is like "uh huh!" so she looks at me and goes "are you expecting?" and I'm like "uhh yeah!" and she asked when, and I told her in 2 weeks and she actually told me "wow you are so small" what was she smoking?? HAHA.. seriously! I feel like a HOUSE! Ive always held my weight in my stomach but yeah, never this much weight!!! HAHA.
My OB said I've gained alot of weight in the past few weeks.. (I HAVE) considering I had gastric bypass and my tummy is tiny, I have NO IDEA how i've gained SO MUCH! I wont even say how much I've gained, lets put it this way, its a lot more then whats recommended for someone "normal"....
Dr. Noland said it has to be water weight that ive gained tho! I am just, so incredibly swollen! Ive been extremely swollen since like the first week of March! I didnt realize how bad I had gotten till I saw my pictures from the baby shower! HAHA. And its not going away! My legs, ankles, toes, all are huge! I finally had to take off my wedding ring and promise ring because if I have a c-section they're going to make me take them off and it was next to impossible to get them off now!
On the downside of life, I gave my medical doctor a list of all my medications I was on pre-pregnancy and she mailed it back today with her comments and basically any medication I feel I absolutely need says "not recommended" for breast feeding :( Very disappointing!!! So I don't know what I'm going to do now! Invest in a lot more bottles? Considering we have, umm.. 2! hahahah
I guess I was kinda stupid to even think that Id get to breast feed with my medications.. I just had high hopes!!! I guess I thought that I could go without meds too, but according to my doc I have like an 80% chance of that postpardum depression (YEAH ME!) And I read that a mommy with depression doesnt connect well with her baby which can cause a lot of problems down the line!!!
So... lets recap..
I wanted a natural, drug free birth.. more then likely I'll be induced, meaning I"ll be given Pitocin (which I do NOT want) and that means the pains will be WAY worse, meaning I'll probably give in to an epidural! that is if I dont need a c-section!
I wanted to exclusively breast feed and I wanted to stay OFF all my medications. But.. that's not looking too promising about the meds, and the meds arent looking like they're going to work with breast feeding.
So, the two major things I really wanted outta this child birth experience are being taken away.. not to mention I've been high risk this whole time because of the wonderful blood clotting disorder I found out I had while being pregnant!
OH WELL....
As long as she is born HEALTHY, I DONT CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will get chopped open by the doc, I will bottle feed, I will take my medications like a good little Mommy.. I will do ANYTHING as long as she is just healthy! I won't even COMPLAIN about it all as long as she is healthy! And all this scary crap with the high risk stuff will have been worth it!
After watching one of those stupid Baby shows on discovery channel, I feel pretty darn lucky to even be having my baby girl! They had a lady on there who apparently has the same blood disorder they said I have (that APS or whatever they told me it is .. its in a previous blog).. but she couldnt carry her babies past the first trimester and she'd lose them! So I guess I'm pretty fortunate to begin with!! (she did have the APS much worse then I have it tho!)....
I just realized, its the first of April.. well. I knew that, but I looked at the calendar and went WOW.. she'll be here in 2 weeks! if not sooner! They will NOT let me go past the due date, they dont even want me to go TO the due date... so I'm thinking in less then 2 weeks, she will be here.. how freakin scary is that??? :) HAHA...
I'm still not 100% ready for her.. my apartment is all cluttered, her room still isnt fully finished, all her clothes arent all hung, her sheets arent all put up, her bassinet isnt put together yet... UGH! And I had NO IDEA how much my energy would disappear out of nowhere.. and I mean, nowhere!
I mean, generally, we're ready.. but its not as ready as I wanted to be for when she got here! We'll live I guess :)
If the doc gives me a choice on an induction day, I'm planning on telling her the 14th. (SORRY HILLARY - HAHAHA she wants Victoria to be born on her bday) hahah. *I* want the 7th, but thats kinda like, THIS tuesday! Yeah! HAHA. So we'll see what happens after my doc appointment on Monday!!
This is a longer blog then I intended!
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Make Victoria's Birth a Game! :)
Okay... This is a baby pool!! Click on the link below and take a guess when you think Baby Victoria will arrive and how much she'll weight, etc!!!!
I will print up everyone's guesses and post them in her baby book to see who was the closest!! :)
http://www.expectnet.com/games/BabyVictoria09
I will print up everyone's guesses and post them in her baby book to see who was the closest!! :)
http://www.expectnet.com/games/BabyVictoria09
Contraction Stress Test Results!!!!!!
Well I am happy to say that Miss Victoria Alexis Bravo did NOT decide to be born during my CST on Thursday! And I am happy to say her and I passed our test!! WooHoo!!! It was a negative conclusion (which means she did good!)...
I luckily was having enough contractions naturally during the test that they did not have to give me any of that evil Pitocin to force contractions on my body. I had to have 3 decent contractions in a 10 minute period and I succeeded on my own!
In fact, one of my contractions was so big that the nurse came in to ask me if I bumped the monitor and I told her NO. But Kevin said I probably did .. so I said "well maybe?" so she stood there to watch for a bit (Of course the "bumped" one was the final 3rd one in the 10 minutes, so if I did infact bump it, I had to do another 3 in 10 minutes!) But as she was watching it I had another fairly large contraction and my arms were behind my head, so I obviously did NOT bump it!!! So my test was done!
She said Victoria did fine during the test and my contractions were looking good! SO WooHoo!!!!
She does not know if they will make me do it once a week like I thought my OB said Id have to do. I guess I will find out on Monday when I see Dr. Noland for a checkup!
We were in the Dollar Tree yesterday shopping and all of a sudden I didnt feel too great. I started having a cramping feeling and it kinda scared me! Kevin wanted to go to Harbor Freight next and I told him I dont think its a good idea, I'm not feeling so hot. So we checked out at the dollar tree and I started feeling a lil better so we still ended up at Sam's club. LOL.
When I got home the uncomfortable feeling began again and I thought I would ask the girls on my pregnancy group online and I was informed "those are contractions" well duh! HAHA. Just like the contractions during my CST.. I didnt know those feelings I had were contractions, I thought they were the baby moving or something. SO apparently I've been feeling contractions for the past 5 days or so and didnt even realize it!! Oops! HAHA. All day today Ive been feeling them off and on too! Which is kinda scary since its all Snowy out! :)
Ive been beyond exhausted lately. I still have a lot of things that need to be done before we bring Miss Victoria home but I am just too tired to do anything! Ive started like a million projects but havent finished anything! I still need to get my baby shower thank you cards out! I'm still working on decor for her room, I still need to put together her changing table area and hang some of her clothes. I would like to organize her clothes by size still, we need to set up her monitor in her room, we need to put together her bassinet.. And I'm working on two presents for friends who are having their babies around the time I'm having Victoria!!! SO yeah, I have enough to do and all I want to do is sleep. Every time I'm awake, I just want to go lay back down! You know when *I* want to go to bed at 9pm, I must be tired. I do NOT sleep early, ever!!!
I've been pretty tired ever since my wonderful baby shower! It seems that day I got ultra swollen and ultra tired! I actually came home from the baby shower and crashed on the couch. I can't tell you the last time I've ever done that! (I have major insomnia so for me to just crash is unheard of!).
Ive been so tired I cant even blog about my baby shower.. I'm just like UGH! hahaha. Its amazing how tired building a baby can make you :)
Everyone says because I'm so tired, the baby has "dropped", the doctor says I'm progressing pretty quickly, and I'm feeling contractions, my friends all think its going to be very very soon! I kinda hope it is just because I dont want to freak out towards my due date (If I havent delivered by April 16th, they are going to induce me and I do NOT want to be induced!!!!!!) But Ive faught them this far to not induce.. but Ive already been told fighting will do me no good after my due date, I WILL be induced, period! As much of a fit as I throw, it won't matter :P hahhaha..
My OB thinks its funny because she wants to induce me and I'm refusing and arguing with her about it (unless its for Victoria's health, but right now its not a health issue!) but she says she has other patients who are begging HER to be induced and she has absolutely no reason to induce them. She said it always works that way! HAHA. I think she's frustrated with me about it, but now she just laughs it off!
And if you are wondering why I don't want to be induced, there are a few reasons. For one, to induce you, they use Pitocin. That is a drug that increases your contractions considerably and will cause contractions to be much more painful then they are on their own. It also can cause distress on the baby and the mama. Meaning if distress happens, there is a bigger chance of a C-Section which I am trying my hardest to avoid! I dont like the idea of being cut open! Plus I dont have anyone to take care of me after a C-section while I'm healing, as Kevin cant take off too much time from work!
I am planning on having a natural, drug free birth. I am using the hypnobirthing plan. Meaning I hope to put myself into a self-hypnosis state thru meditation and relaxation. I am hoping to be into hypnosis enough that my mind will cover the pain my body is feeling. I am trying my hardest to not accept any form of pain reliever.
If they give me Pitocin, more then likely the pain will be too much for me to block out of my mind, I'll end up with an epidural and could end up with a C-section. No thank you!
Now, I am open to an epidural if the pain is absolutely beyond my control. However, I do plan on trying my hardest to stay in hypnosis and do this the way I've always wanted to give birth, medication free!
I want her born in a drug free environment because a baby born naturally will be born more alert and responsive. She will also breast feed easier and will bond better with her parents. Id just prefer no epidural or any other pain reliever to be involved in my birth!
It will be interesting to see how this all pans out in the end :)
So there is my update and a little of why I am doing things the way I am doing them .. for those who don't know! :)
I luckily was having enough contractions naturally during the test that they did not have to give me any of that evil Pitocin to force contractions on my body. I had to have 3 decent contractions in a 10 minute period and I succeeded on my own!
In fact, one of my contractions was so big that the nurse came in to ask me if I bumped the monitor and I told her NO. But Kevin said I probably did .. so I said "well maybe?" so she stood there to watch for a bit (Of course the "bumped" one was the final 3rd one in the 10 minutes, so if I did infact bump it, I had to do another 3 in 10 minutes!) But as she was watching it I had another fairly large contraction and my arms were behind my head, so I obviously did NOT bump it!!! So my test was done!
She said Victoria did fine during the test and my contractions were looking good! SO WooHoo!!!!
She does not know if they will make me do it once a week like I thought my OB said Id have to do. I guess I will find out on Monday when I see Dr. Noland for a checkup!
We were in the Dollar Tree yesterday shopping and all of a sudden I didnt feel too great. I started having a cramping feeling and it kinda scared me! Kevin wanted to go to Harbor Freight next and I told him I dont think its a good idea, I'm not feeling so hot. So we checked out at the dollar tree and I started feeling a lil better so we still ended up at Sam's club. LOL.
When I got home the uncomfortable feeling began again and I thought I would ask the girls on my pregnancy group online and I was informed "those are contractions" well duh! HAHA. Just like the contractions during my CST.. I didnt know those feelings I had were contractions, I thought they were the baby moving or something. SO apparently I've been feeling contractions for the past 5 days or so and didnt even realize it!! Oops! HAHA. All day today Ive been feeling them off and on too! Which is kinda scary since its all Snowy out! :)
Ive been beyond exhausted lately. I still have a lot of things that need to be done before we bring Miss Victoria home but I am just too tired to do anything! Ive started like a million projects but havent finished anything! I still need to get my baby shower thank you cards out! I'm still working on decor for her room, I still need to put together her changing table area and hang some of her clothes. I would like to organize her clothes by size still, we need to set up her monitor in her room, we need to put together her bassinet.. And I'm working on two presents for friends who are having their babies around the time I'm having Victoria!!! SO yeah, I have enough to do and all I want to do is sleep. Every time I'm awake, I just want to go lay back down! You know when *I* want to go to bed at 9pm, I must be tired. I do NOT sleep early, ever!!!
I've been pretty tired ever since my wonderful baby shower! It seems that day I got ultra swollen and ultra tired! I actually came home from the baby shower and crashed on the couch. I can't tell you the last time I've ever done that! (I have major insomnia so for me to just crash is unheard of!).
Ive been so tired I cant even blog about my baby shower.. I'm just like UGH! hahaha. Its amazing how tired building a baby can make you :)
Everyone says because I'm so tired, the baby has "dropped", the doctor says I'm progressing pretty quickly, and I'm feeling contractions, my friends all think its going to be very very soon! I kinda hope it is just because I dont want to freak out towards my due date (If I havent delivered by April 16th, they are going to induce me and I do NOT want to be induced!!!!!!) But Ive faught them this far to not induce.. but Ive already been told fighting will do me no good after my due date, I WILL be induced, period! As much of a fit as I throw, it won't matter :P hahhaha..
My OB thinks its funny because she wants to induce me and I'm refusing and arguing with her about it (unless its for Victoria's health, but right now its not a health issue!) but she says she has other patients who are begging HER to be induced and she has absolutely no reason to induce them. She said it always works that way! HAHA. I think she's frustrated with me about it, but now she just laughs it off!
And if you are wondering why I don't want to be induced, there are a few reasons. For one, to induce you, they use Pitocin. That is a drug that increases your contractions considerably and will cause contractions to be much more painful then they are on their own. It also can cause distress on the baby and the mama. Meaning if distress happens, there is a bigger chance of a C-Section which I am trying my hardest to avoid! I dont like the idea of being cut open! Plus I dont have anyone to take care of me after a C-section while I'm healing, as Kevin cant take off too much time from work!
I am planning on having a natural, drug free birth. I am using the hypnobirthing plan. Meaning I hope to put myself into a self-hypnosis state thru meditation and relaxation. I am hoping to be into hypnosis enough that my mind will cover the pain my body is feeling. I am trying my hardest to not accept any form of pain reliever.
If they give me Pitocin, more then likely the pain will be too much for me to block out of my mind, I'll end up with an epidural and could end up with a C-section. No thank you!
Now, I am open to an epidural if the pain is absolutely beyond my control. However, I do plan on trying my hardest to stay in hypnosis and do this the way I've always wanted to give birth, medication free!
I want her born in a drug free environment because a baby born naturally will be born more alert and responsive. She will also breast feed easier and will bond better with her parents. Id just prefer no epidural or any other pain reliever to be involved in my birth!
It will be interesting to see how this all pans out in the end :)
So there is my update and a little of why I am doing things the way I am doing them .. for those who don't know! :)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Contraction Stress Test at 10am!!
Well, in about 2 hours I will be at St. John's hospital in the labor and delivery unit getting ready for them to perform yet another test on me.. A Contraction stress test.
http://www.babycenter.com/0_contraction-stress-test_1276699.bc
Yeah Me! HAHA.. I dont want this test but the high risk OB said I need it.. so guess what I get!? :)
On the bright side of the spectrum, I no longer have to see the high risk OB.. She said since Victoria has grown, I'm no longer as high risk as I was.
I havent blogged in awhile, but she went from the 7th percentile to the 25th percentile in 2 weeks.. which i just AWESOME!!! (that means orginally she was larger then 7% of baby's her age. Now she is larger then 25% of baby's her age. High Risk is pretty much anything under 10%) SHe's been under 10% since ATLEAST December!!! If not the whole pregnancy! So this is just like.. awesome news!!! Ideally you want yer baby to be at the 50% mark.. as 100% is like, a HUGE baby that would need to be c-sectioned cuz its TOO big!!!
I'm not too extcited about this contraction test deal because it can send you into full blown labor for one.. and for two, if she doesnt show good signs during this test, they could decide to c-section me like, TODAY! And that scares the crap outta me too!
I have high hopes that I dont go into full on labor today and I have high hopes that she passes the test and they dont want to c-section me! It seems my docor is DYING to induce me or c-section me and I keep fighting her on it! As long as its not MEDICALLY necesary, I dont want it done!!! I know many women are out there BEGGING for their docs to c-section or induce them, but its just not in my "plan" hahah.. so.. I fight!!!
I guess I'll have this CST every thursday until the baby is born. I dont understand the point of that.. to me, if she does good today, won't she do good next thursday too? *shrug* I guess its hard to say.. she changes so much all the time anyways! Like, they wont even give me a guestimate of her birth weight because shes so unpredictable, who knows!! Its because she has that growth restrction deal going on.. so she is low weight one day, normal the next.. She's 5 pounds 2 ounces I believe, as of March 12th. So now she's probably 6 pounds? Hard to say!
I'm nervous about this test tho, and I think its going to be a very time consuming test.. which .. joy oh joy! As if I dont spend enough time at doc offices :) I just hope it doesnt hurt too much and I Hope she doesnt decide to be born today..
We'll see I guess :)
I packed all our bags last night JUST IN CASE!!! So I think I'm pretty prepared.. altho I look like im moving into the hospital.. but oh well.. I'll live :)
Gotta get going now.. wish me luck! haha
http://www.babycenter.com/0_contraction-stress-test_1276699.bc
Yeah Me! HAHA.. I dont want this test but the high risk OB said I need it.. so guess what I get!? :)
On the bright side of the spectrum, I no longer have to see the high risk OB.. She said since Victoria has grown, I'm no longer as high risk as I was.
I havent blogged in awhile, but she went from the 7th percentile to the 25th percentile in 2 weeks.. which i just AWESOME!!! (that means orginally she was larger then 7% of baby's her age. Now she is larger then 25% of baby's her age. High Risk is pretty much anything under 10%) SHe's been under 10% since ATLEAST December!!! If not the whole pregnancy! So this is just like.. awesome news!!! Ideally you want yer baby to be at the 50% mark.. as 100% is like, a HUGE baby that would need to be c-sectioned cuz its TOO big!!!
I'm not too extcited about this contraction test deal because it can send you into full blown labor for one.. and for two, if she doesnt show good signs during this test, they could decide to c-section me like, TODAY! And that scares the crap outta me too!
I have high hopes that I dont go into full on labor today and I have high hopes that she passes the test and they dont want to c-section me! It seems my docor is DYING to induce me or c-section me and I keep fighting her on it! As long as its not MEDICALLY necesary, I dont want it done!!! I know many women are out there BEGGING for their docs to c-section or induce them, but its just not in my "plan" hahah.. so.. I fight!!!
I guess I'll have this CST every thursday until the baby is born. I dont understand the point of that.. to me, if she does good today, won't she do good next thursday too? *shrug* I guess its hard to say.. she changes so much all the time anyways! Like, they wont even give me a guestimate of her birth weight because shes so unpredictable, who knows!! Its because she has that growth restrction deal going on.. so she is low weight one day, normal the next.. She's 5 pounds 2 ounces I believe, as of March 12th. So now she's probably 6 pounds? Hard to say!
I'm nervous about this test tho, and I think its going to be a very time consuming test.. which .. joy oh joy! As if I dont spend enough time at doc offices :) I just hope it doesnt hurt too much and I Hope she doesnt decide to be born today..
We'll see I guess :)
I packed all our bags last night JUST IN CASE!!! So I think I'm pretty prepared.. altho I look like im moving into the hospital.. but oh well.. I'll live :)
Gotta get going now.. wish me luck! haha
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Braxton Hicks Contractions
Well I was at Walmart last night shopping and walking A LOT and yeah... I started to feel a tightening feeling and from what I had read, thats a Braxton Hicks like contraction (I felt it for the first time Sunday when I was walking to Ross.)
It was like non-stop tho all thru Walmart and then I had to bend down to the bottom shelf to get some milk and it got worse..
I don't like that feeling.. its not really fun! HAHA. I guess you have the contractions basically all thru the pregnancy, just you don't always feel it. But now that I feel it, its a trip!! Everyone keeps telling me "your body is preparing for labor" GREAAAAT! Just what I want to hear.. seriously!
So yeah.. fun stuff!!!!
I had a doc appointment Monday (when do I not have a doc appointment) and the doc said she's doing good.. she passed her tests.. blah blah blah :)
I did get the ultrasound tech to type Victoria's name on the ultrasound picture so I have two pics with her name on them :) ANd I have one pic with her HUGE foot in her face! Her foot seriously looks sooo big! HAHA
She still appears to have quite the chubby face!!! (for those who don't know, we had a 4D ultrasound when I was in cali and she has really chubby cheeks!!!!) I should post some of those pics I guess huh??? Even in her normal ultrasounds her cheeks look chubby.. so yeah.. should be cute :)
I'm assuming she has red-hair but I guess we'll have to wait to find out!!! I will be SO SHOCKED if she does NOT have red hair! Seriously! Red hair is so dominant in the gene world.. plus Kevin's beard grows in red too! So.. should be interesting :) I hope she gets my blue eyes too! Unfortunately I think she has my forehead (from the 3d pics it looks that way)... or as Jennifer says, my "five-head". Poor girl! She'll have to wear bangs her whole life to cover her huge forehead! HAHAH.
I'm definately not ready for her to be born. I have days where I feel like I'm ready, but then the next day reminds me I'm not ready! Her nursery still isnt complete, my apartment is far from complete, I havent washed any of her clothes yet (Waiting for Barbara to come out to do that.. she really wants to help so I'll take it :) hahhaha), I dont even know how to put the car seat in the car yet! HAHAHA... this baby stuff is SO NEW to me! :)
On the bright side, maybe I'll feel better about everything soon because our first class is this Thursday night so maybe we'll learn something!!! And then our safety class where they teach us about the car-seat is on the 17th.
I haven't been practicing my hypnosis at all.. If she decided to be born tonight, id be in big trouble! Id HAVE to take an epidural because I'm not ready to do hypno-birthing in my opinion! I REALLY need to practice my hypnosis.. badly.. and its so easy to say "I'll do it tomorrow"
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!
It was like non-stop tho all thru Walmart and then I had to bend down to the bottom shelf to get some milk and it got worse..
I don't like that feeling.. its not really fun! HAHA. I guess you have the contractions basically all thru the pregnancy, just you don't always feel it. But now that I feel it, its a trip!! Everyone keeps telling me "your body is preparing for labor" GREAAAAT! Just what I want to hear.. seriously!
So yeah.. fun stuff!!!!
I had a doc appointment Monday (when do I not have a doc appointment) and the doc said she's doing good.. she passed her tests.. blah blah blah :)
I did get the ultrasound tech to type Victoria's name on the ultrasound picture so I have two pics with her name on them :) ANd I have one pic with her HUGE foot in her face! Her foot seriously looks sooo big! HAHA
She still appears to have quite the chubby face!!! (for those who don't know, we had a 4D ultrasound when I was in cali and she has really chubby cheeks!!!!) I should post some of those pics I guess huh??? Even in her normal ultrasounds her cheeks look chubby.. so yeah.. should be cute :)
I'm assuming she has red-hair but I guess we'll have to wait to find out!!! I will be SO SHOCKED if she does NOT have red hair! Seriously! Red hair is so dominant in the gene world.. plus Kevin's beard grows in red too! So.. should be interesting :) I hope she gets my blue eyes too! Unfortunately I think she has my forehead (from the 3d pics it looks that way)... or as Jennifer says, my "five-head". Poor girl! She'll have to wear bangs her whole life to cover her huge forehead! HAHAH.
I'm definately not ready for her to be born. I have days where I feel like I'm ready, but then the next day reminds me I'm not ready! Her nursery still isnt complete, my apartment is far from complete, I havent washed any of her clothes yet (Waiting for Barbara to come out to do that.. she really wants to help so I'll take it :) hahhaha), I dont even know how to put the car seat in the car yet! HAHAHA... this baby stuff is SO NEW to me! :)
On the bright side, maybe I'll feel better about everything soon because our first class is this Thursday night so maybe we'll learn something!!! And then our safety class where they teach us about the car-seat is on the 17th.
I haven't been practicing my hypnosis at all.. If she decided to be born tonight, id be in big trouble! Id HAVE to take an epidural because I'm not ready to do hypno-birthing in my opinion! I REALLY need to practice my hypnosis.. badly.. and its so easy to say "I'll do it tomorrow"
UGH!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Dr. Blake (High Risk) Appointment Update 02/26/09
Went to the doc today.. Baby Toria is doing good!! She passed all her tests with flying colors.. woohoo!!!! She was cute on her ultrasound.. she had her arm draped across her face.. I just imagine it being all dramatic.. life of a Princess! hahah.. and then she was huffing and puffing during the ultrasound.. the doc said it was like huff puff and then sigh. HAHA.. I guess we were boring her? And then she had her tongue moving constantly.. i dunno if she was wanting to suck or what the deal was with her tongue but it was moving! The doc usually is very straight forward and to the point and she actually was like commenting on how cute Victoria was acting! haha..
I keep reading stuff online... yeah.. i know.. i shouldnt! hahha.... But I was told during my hypnobirthing class to tell them NO to the Vitamin K shot (for her) and to supply my own Vitamin K infant tablets for her. They said that the injection gives her WAY too much Vitamin K. And it hurts her cuz its a shot. But I'm having a hard time finding Vitamin K. SO.. I looked it up online!!!
I read I can take vitamin K now and when I breast feed it'll get to her that way, plus give her the tablets in the hospital as well. However, the Vitamin K causes your blood to clot better (or something?) and since they found out I have a blood clot disorder and they have me on baby aspirin for it, I'm assuming the last thing I want is to clot more! hahahha.. so thats a no-go.
Then I read that if a baby gets too much vitamin K it can cause leukemia and other cancers (or something?) but then if the baby doesnt get enough, they can have bleeding in their brain that can cause permanant damage and death.. I'm just like OMG! UGH!
SO.. I asked Dr. Blake. She said the chances of the bleeding disorder arent high (I think i read its 1 in 100,000 babys) but she recommends the shot. She said that the shot is not likely to cause any harm to the baby, only good preventative things.. so.. she suggests having the shot.
And I'm being an over protective mommy, but I didnt want her to have to have a shot right when she's born! haha.. I know shes coming out to the real world and shes not going to be all warm and cuddled up inside my belly, so thats a shocking change to start with, but then to be stabbed with a needle too. Poor girl! I know they have to take her blood but I figured if i could take away one more needle from her and give her tablets I will. But i guess I'll allow her to have the shot and deal with it! ahah...
But then again, if she were a boy, we'd be having MUCH WORSE done to her then a sh
ot HAHAHA.. so I guess I'll just quit being an overprotective mommy and let them do their job!!!
I have an issue with the erythromicin in her eyes too!! Its pointless... I have no diseases so she doesnt need it.. but its a standard thing they do.. ugh!
I need to quit reading the interenet i think :P
Anyways.. Here is a new picture of me... 33 weeks exactly.. She's gonna be here in no time.. I'm scared :P
Kevin is starting on the nursery tonight (He'll do more painting tomorrow.. he just tried the color on the wall to see what it looks like... I'm really scared about it cuz it looks pretty dark!!! We went with the blue color because there really wasnt any other color we could choose that would look good with her quilt.. the pink i think would be too pepto bismo pink and it would drown out the other pink in her room, the orange would be kinda pukey, and then that leaves turquoise and i dont want it THAT dark!!! So we had the choice of light turquoise, medium and dark.. we went with the medium color.. Kev and i both agreed on it.. but now that its starting to go on the wall, im scared HAHHAA.. I hope its not too dark!! I'm sure I'm just freakin over nothing!! We'll see tomorrow when he gets to painting it more! :)
Here is where we are so far..
The pictures are just to show the color so far.. it obviously not much yet!!! Plus I keep changing my mind about where I want to put everything in the room.. The lamp Kevin just hung in the ceiling I already want on another part of the room, the crib I now want somewhere else.. I think I'm gonna drive Kevin NUTS :)
I keep reading stuff online... yeah.. i know.. i shouldnt! hahha.... But I was told during my hypnobirthing class to tell them NO to the Vitamin K shot (for her) and to supply my own Vitamin K infant tablets for her. They said that the injection gives her WAY too much Vitamin K. And it hurts her cuz its a shot. But I'm having a hard time finding Vitamin K. SO.. I looked it up online!!!
I read I can take vitamin K now and when I breast feed it'll get to her that way, plus give her the tablets in the hospital as well. However, the Vitamin K causes your blood to clot better (or something?) and since they found out I have a blood clot disorder and they have me on baby aspirin for it, I'm assuming the last thing I want is to clot more! hahahha.. so thats a no-go.
Then I read that if a baby gets too much vitamin K it can cause leukemia and other cancers (or something?) but then if the baby doesnt get enough, they can have bleeding in their brain that can cause permanant damage and death.. I'm just like OMG! UGH!
SO.. I asked Dr. Blake. She said the chances of the bleeding disorder arent high (I think i read its 1 in 100,000 babys) but she recommends the shot. She said that the shot is not likely to cause any harm to the baby, only good preventative things.. so.. she suggests having the shot.
And I'm being an over protective mommy, but I didnt want her to have to have a shot right when she's born! haha.. I know shes coming out to the real world and shes not going to be all warm and cuddled up inside my belly, so thats a shocking change to start with, but then to be stabbed with a needle too. Poor girl! I know they have to take her blood but I figured if i could take away one more needle from her and give her tablets I will. But i guess I'll allow her to have the shot and deal with it! ahah...
But then again, if she were a boy, we'd be having MUCH WORSE done to her then a sh
ot HAHAHA.. so I guess I'll just quit being an overprotective mommy and let them do their job!!!I have an issue with the erythromicin in her eyes too!! Its pointless... I have no diseases so she doesnt need it.. but its a standard thing they do.. ugh!
I need to quit reading the interenet i think :P
Anyways.. Here is a new picture of me... 33 weeks exactly.. She's gonna be here in no time.. I'm scared :P
Kevin is starting on the nursery tonight (He'll do more painting tomorrow.. he just tried the color on the wall to see what it looks like... I'm really scared about it cuz it looks pretty dark!!! We went with the blue color because there really wasnt any other color we could choose that would look good with her quilt.. the pink i think would be too pepto bismo pink and it would drown out the other pink in her room, the orange would be kinda pukey, and then that leaves turquoise and i dont want it THAT dark!!! So we had the choice of light turquoise, medium and dark.. we went with the medium color.. Kev and i both agreed on it.. but now that its starting to go on the wall, im scared HAHHAA.. I hope its not too dark!! I'm sure I'm just freakin over nothing!! We'll see tomorrow when he gets to painting it more! :)
Here is where we are so far..
The pictures are just to show the color so far.. it obviously not much yet!!! Plus I keep changing my mind about where I want to put everything in the room.. The lamp Kevin just hung in the ceiling I already want on another part of the room, the crib I now want somewhere else.. I think I'm gonna drive Kevin NUTS :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Its hard sometimes!!!!
It's really difficult to be in a bad mood when everyone is being nice to me today! Can't I just hate life today? HAHA. I woke up in incredible mouth pain (I lost a giant filling on my flight home from california in January) I didnt hurt for a few weeks, but I started hurting the beginning of Feb. So I'm not happy!
I went to my doc appointment with Dr. Noland. My mouth pain finally went away by then (I broke down and took one of my tyelnol 4's.. ) and the nurse weighted me and I went WOW! haha.. I've gained alot in the past week.. makes me sad! hahha...
Dr. Noland said everything from my ultrasound yesterday looked good. And she told me this is the one time in my life when I go to the doctor and tell her how i feel she's gonna tell me its okay to feel like crap :) She said its normal! My legs being swollen is normal, me being tired is normal, and I'll feel baby Victoria move more as she gets bigger! (I told her I dont feel her constantly but I feel her more lately)...
She then asked if I was going to deliver at St. John's and I told her yes. And she said "Okay" then she went on to say that she saw "Katy" the nurse who did our hospital tour for us and Katy told her that we were there and thinking about St. John's. I then told Noland how nice Katy is! hahah..
Seriously, its so nice to not just be a number. For someone to actually remember who you are and talk about you to someone else in a nice manner! I just know we chose the right hospital now! I just really hope that Katy is working when I go into labor.. that would be ideal!
Then I went to Walgreen's to pick up a perscription and the girl who helped me immediately went to the computer when I got there.. then she's all "hmm.. can i help you?" and I told her "pick up for Bravo" and she's all "OHHHH you got me, you changed yer last name!" hahaha.. so that made me laugh.. She said its gonna take her awhile to remember Bravo and not Green. I'm there so much she sadly knows me by name hahaha.. So... again, I didnt feel like a number, i felt like I existed!
So yeah.. so far ive only come in contact with a few people today and so far everyone has been really nice to me and I just wanted to be a snotty person today but I guess I'll have to pull myself outta it and be normal HAHAHA...
I did go to my potential future Psychiatrists office.. hoping they'll start to see me as soon as the baby is born. But the lady i needed to talk to wasnt available and when she called me I didnt hear the phone cuz I was driving. I called her back and all I get is voice mail. I hope she calls me soon, I want to see if my day will continue to be good and she'll tell me the doctor will see me... preferably before the baby gets here but if not immediately after she gets here! As my doc wont see me till like June or something? Ridiculous!
Anyways, my Day's of Our Lives is about to start and that is the one show I truely appreciate watching daily so I'm gonna go get ready to watch it :)
ta ta for now!
I went to my doc appointment with Dr. Noland. My mouth pain finally went away by then (I broke down and took one of my tyelnol 4's.. ) and the nurse weighted me and I went WOW! haha.. I've gained alot in the past week.. makes me sad! hahha...
Dr. Noland said everything from my ultrasound yesterday looked good. And she told me this is the one time in my life when I go to the doctor and tell her how i feel she's gonna tell me its okay to feel like crap :) She said its normal! My legs being swollen is normal, me being tired is normal, and I'll feel baby Victoria move more as she gets bigger! (I told her I dont feel her constantly but I feel her more lately)...
She then asked if I was going to deliver at St. John's and I told her yes. And she said "Okay" then she went on to say that she saw "Katy" the nurse who did our hospital tour for us and Katy told her that we were there and thinking about St. John's. I then told Noland how nice Katy is! hahah..
Seriously, its so nice to not just be a number. For someone to actually remember who you are and talk about you to someone else in a nice manner! I just know we chose the right hospital now! I just really hope that Katy is working when I go into labor.. that would be ideal!
Then I went to Walgreen's to pick up a perscription and the girl who helped me immediately went to the computer when I got there.. then she's all "hmm.. can i help you?" and I told her "pick up for Bravo" and she's all "OHHHH you got me, you changed yer last name!" hahaha.. so that made me laugh.. She said its gonna take her awhile to remember Bravo and not Green. I'm there so much she sadly knows me by name hahaha.. So... again, I didnt feel like a number, i felt like I existed!
So yeah.. so far ive only come in contact with a few people today and so far everyone has been really nice to me and I just wanted to be a snotty person today but I guess I'll have to pull myself outta it and be normal HAHAHA...
I did go to my potential future Psychiatrists office.. hoping they'll start to see me as soon as the baby is born. But the lady i needed to talk to wasnt available and when she called me I didnt hear the phone cuz I was driving. I called her back and all I get is voice mail. I hope she calls me soon, I want to see if my day will continue to be good and she'll tell me the doctor will see me... preferably before the baby gets here but if not immediately after she gets here! As my doc wont see me till like June or something? Ridiculous!
Anyways, my Day's of Our Lives is about to start and that is the one show I truely appreciate watching daily so I'm gonna go get ready to watch it :)
ta ta for now!
Friday, February 20, 2009
Victoria's Ride Home from the Hospital Outfit!!!
Here is a picture of the outfit we chose for Victoria to wear home from the hospital.. It's a onesie and it has little floral pants that match with the sweater and it has a little hat for her to wear also.
I'm going to buy her cute little ruffly socks or something to wear home on her little tootsies!! Hopefully it wont be too hot or too cold that day!!! hahah.
I just had to buy her this little outfit because it reminded me of her crib set! I just thought it was too Cute..
I think I have something for the color Orange Lately! :)
A cute little Yellow Dress for her to wear in the Summer time :)There are too many pictures of ALL her new clothes... These are just the most recent ones we've bought :P
I really need to post a picture of her adorable bathingsuit that her Grandma Barbara bought her!!! Its too cute!!!!
As I'm labeling pictures on my computer, I also have realized, I need to find out what everyone wants to be called. Like the Grandparents, "Grandma" "Grammy" "Nanna" "Nanny" UHH??? And We need to figure out how to differentiate between them all! haha.
So far, all I know is Isis has claimed "Tia Isis" Which works for me!!! Other then that.. No clue :P
A Picture of me at 32 Weeks Pregnant
Here is a picture of me at 32 Weeks Pregnant! I'm getting Huge!! Hardly any of my clothes fit anymore. I'm already on my second set/size of Maternity clothes! If I get any bigger I'm just going to wear a tent I think! :)
Victoria's Bedding
WOOHOO!!! Victoria's bedding FINALLY arrived yesterday!!! I ordered it in January and they took FOREVER! Its SOO pretty tho!!!!
I just ordered the bedding and the mobile. We'll either order the other stuff later or use different items instead of what comes with the set (we dont know yet.)
Now we're in the dilema of what colors to paint the room! I'm so torn! I'm usually REALLY good with colors and making these choices but right now, I can't figure it out for the life of me! I kinda like how they did it in the picture with the light turquoise walls.. but she's a girl so Kevin thinks she should have pink.. We dont have a clue!!!
02/20/09 Dr. Blake (High Risk OB) Update
Okay.. Had an appointment today. Had some confusion on the time of the appointment.. so after getting turned away at 10:45am.. I went back at 1pm and had the actual appointment (Never trust Kevin when he tells you he KNOWS what time yer appointments are!) HAHA...
When I got there they did the "non-stress test" on me.. its where they put a monitor on my belly and I need to hold it there for like, 20 minutes while they listen to the baby's heart beat. I guess the point of it is to see if her heart rate goes up and down as she moves. Like its usually around 150 normally, but when she moves it'll go up and then its supposed to go back down to 150. So they move my belly around trying to make her move around (gotta love pissing off the baby!) hahah.. I guess she did okay on that (they didnt say much about it)..
Then I had my ultrasound. She's weighting 3.8 pounds now. And from what I read on Babycenter.com (or something?) shes supposed to be 3.75 pounds so shes right on track with the weight. So thats good!!! However, Dr. Blake said she is 9 days behind schedule (I could have sworn a month ago she told us 7 days..) and then she's in the 7th percentile (meaning she's only larger then 7% of baby's her gestational age - 32 weeks!).. she was in the 8th percentile one month ago. Dr. Blake said 1% isnt anything to worry about. *shrug* The umbilical cord blood pressure was normal. She did say something was on the high side but for the life of me I cant remember what she told me! But the baby did take her practice breaths this week (Last week they watched her for 15 minutes and she didnt take any!) but the two weeks before that she did.. so maybe last week was just an off week!
I was concerned about the info as in the 9 days behind and the 7th percentile deal but Dr. Blake said she's actually doing very well and she got a 10 out of 10 in tests today and there is nothing to worry about right now.
So, being she's the doctor that really knows what shes doing, I'll take her word on that. If she wouldnt have said that I'd probably have gotten sad and went home and moped around over it.. but she said not to worry, so I'll take her word on that I guess! :)
Now I have two baby classes tomorrow (Saturday), an Ultrasound at Dr. Noland's office on Monday, a OB appointment WITH dr. Noland on tuesday, an appointment at St. John's for preadmission work and the financial part (EEK!) on wednesday, then a OB appointment with Dr. Blake on Thursday and then I get to relax all day Friday (yeah right!) HAHA.
OH, we did have a hospital tour of St. John's today also. (I went on a tour a few weeks ago, but i thought for sure I'd be choosing Hillcrest so I told Kevin not to worry about getting time off work for the tour!) BUT, then I toured Hillcrest (as did he.) and I decided I really liked St. John's way better!!! SO.. we scheduled another tour of St. John's today so Kevin could see as well!
The nurse that did the tour for us was so much more informative then the night i went.. she explained a lot more (including how to park) HAHA>. funny thing.. they tell you to park on the 6th floor when you are in labor and going to the hospital.. so i thought we'd check out the 6th floor so I could see everything as in if i were in labor.. well we're driving and we're at like, floor 5 and then it goes to 7.. and I'm like HUH?? So we got in an arguement over whats going on.. and finally we just realized we're really confused, parked at floor 5, took the elevator to floor 6, went out in the parking garage and stood there like HUH??? as we were way confused.. so we said "whatever" and went on to our tour.. well.. the nurse "Katy" explained, if you enter in front of the hospital then you hit floors, 1, 3, 5, 7 by the hospital enterance.. but if you enter the other parking structure (the one we usually use to get to Dr. Blakes) then you hit, 2, 4, 6 8 for the hospital.. SO.. we just entered the wrong side of the structure.. we're not stupid afterall :P hahhaha. we were way confused!
So she took us across the air bridge thing and showed us where you check in when in labor then she showed us the triage room (we couldnt go in there tho), then she showed us where they do the c-sections if there is an emergency, then she showed us the labor and delivery rooms which are very nice! I like it cuz they hide everything, like the oxygen tubes and all that stuff is behind a picture that slides up in the room and the monitors and everything are in an armoire and there is a nice chair that reclines in there and a bench chair too, plus a flat screen tv and then there is a shower and the place where the put the baby and all tht fun stuff. And she showed us the "code pink" button on the wall that is connected to the NICU department so if baby has problems, they press that button and immediately the NICU rushes to the room to help the baby. The room was very nice tho!!!
Then they showed us the nursery's.. I guess St. Johns is the only one in Tulsa that has a "special nursery" and a normal nursery. Like if the baby needs oxygen or antibiotics or something more done, but isnt in bad enough condition to go to NICU, then she will go to the special nursery.. its kinda between a completely healthy baby and a sick baby nursery.. so if its something minor, she'll go in there (on the same floor as me) but if its something major then she'll go to the NICU unit. So thats nice to know.
Then she explained the tag system. Baby has a bracelet on her wrist, ankle and a security tag on her umbilical cord. Kevin and i will each have a bracelet and the only people who can get her outta the nursery is kevin or i. And we have to go thru two locked doors to get to her.. And if shes taken beyond the security points all the elevators lock up and security knows right away.. so she can't be stollen (or lost like in Kevin's dream.. he dreamed that the hospital lost her and he couldnt find her tracking number (like a UPS package) so they couldnt find her HAHA)
We got to see the recovery room too.. there is a padded bench thing that makes into a twin bed plus a rocking chair and then my bed.. plus another flat screen tv. and that room is nice as well.. oh, plus our own shower.
During my tour they said that Kevin can have a tray of food brought up to him (we pay for it tho) or we can call and have food delivered.. or beg our family members to bring us food HAHHA... so yeah.. thats nice to know as well... plus baby can be brought in our room in a bassinet type deal and she can stay in there as much or as little as I want her in there.
And Nurse Katy is all for natural childbirth and she said other nurses are too... so i dont feel like im going to be pressured into an epidural so thats good!! Shes worked there 20 years, another nurse we saw has been there 20 years too, another 10.. she said they all are like that.. they stay forever! Plus we saw the nun that visits everyone while yer in there.. everyone seemed SO NICE!!!
Nurse Katy said she'll try to find us on wednesday when I do the pre-admittance tests and stuff so she can work with us.. and I'm for sure asking for her if she's working when i go into labor, she just was so nice and made us feel so at home! She even gave us a hug on our way out! haha..
I liked it cuz nurse Katy was like "well thanks for considering our hospital" and Kevin is all "we decided on your hospital, no more considerations!" and Nurse Katy got all excited. See, at Hillcrest, I hadnt even toured the hospital yet and they wanted me filling out paper work with my insurance info to "sign me up!" they didnt even ask if I was interested, they just assumed thats my decision! umm.. no! :)
And to top it off, all my classes were at Hillcrest, even tho I chose St Johns .. so i was just going to keep it that way since we already paid and stuff.. well.. hillcrest called thursday and said my classes were cancelled!!! So, we have to go with St. John's classes anyways, so to me, that was just a sign that i made a good choice in St. Johns since hillcrest fell thru on my classes too! Now i just have to wait like 3 weeks for my refund!!! jeeze!!
Anyways.. so thats my long drawn out day. Now I am going to take a nap and regret it tonight when I can't sleep :) hahha
When I got there they did the "non-stress test" on me.. its where they put a monitor on my belly and I need to hold it there for like, 20 minutes while they listen to the baby's heart beat. I guess the point of it is to see if her heart rate goes up and down as she moves. Like its usually around 150 normally, but when she moves it'll go up and then its supposed to go back down to 150. So they move my belly around trying to make her move around (gotta love pissing off the baby!) hahah.. I guess she did okay on that (they didnt say much about it)..
Then I had my ultrasound. She's weighting 3.8 pounds now. And from what I read on Babycenter.com (or something?) shes supposed to be 3.75 pounds so shes right on track with the weight. So thats good!!! However, Dr. Blake said she is 9 days behind schedule (I could have sworn a month ago she told us 7 days..) and then she's in the 7th percentile (meaning she's only larger then 7% of baby's her gestational age - 32 weeks!).. she was in the 8th percentile one month ago. Dr. Blake said 1% isnt anything to worry about. *shrug* The umbilical cord blood pressure was normal. She did say something was on the high side but for the life of me I cant remember what she told me! But the baby did take her practice breaths this week (Last week they watched her for 15 minutes and she didnt take any!) but the two weeks before that she did.. so maybe last week was just an off week!
I was concerned about the info as in the 9 days behind and the 7th percentile deal but Dr. Blake said she's actually doing very well and she got a 10 out of 10 in tests today and there is nothing to worry about right now.
So, being she's the doctor that really knows what shes doing, I'll take her word on that. If she wouldnt have said that I'd probably have gotten sad and went home and moped around over it.. but she said not to worry, so I'll take her word on that I guess! :)
Now I have two baby classes tomorrow (Saturday), an Ultrasound at Dr. Noland's office on Monday, a OB appointment WITH dr. Noland on tuesday, an appointment at St. John's for preadmission work and the financial part (EEK!) on wednesday, then a OB appointment with Dr. Blake on Thursday and then I get to relax all day Friday (yeah right!) HAHA.
OH, we did have a hospital tour of St. John's today also. (I went on a tour a few weeks ago, but i thought for sure I'd be choosing Hillcrest so I told Kevin not to worry about getting time off work for the tour!) BUT, then I toured Hillcrest (as did he.) and I decided I really liked St. John's way better!!! SO.. we scheduled another tour of St. John's today so Kevin could see as well!
The nurse that did the tour for us was so much more informative then the night i went.. she explained a lot more (including how to park) HAHA>. funny thing.. they tell you to park on the 6th floor when you are in labor and going to the hospital.. so i thought we'd check out the 6th floor so I could see everything as in if i were in labor.. well we're driving and we're at like, floor 5 and then it goes to 7.. and I'm like HUH?? So we got in an arguement over whats going on.. and finally we just realized we're really confused, parked at floor 5, took the elevator to floor 6, went out in the parking garage and stood there like HUH??? as we were way confused.. so we said "whatever" and went on to our tour.. well.. the nurse "Katy" explained, if you enter in front of the hospital then you hit floors, 1, 3, 5, 7 by the hospital enterance.. but if you enter the other parking structure (the one we usually use to get to Dr. Blakes) then you hit, 2, 4, 6 8 for the hospital.. SO.. we just entered the wrong side of the structure.. we're not stupid afterall :P hahhaha. we were way confused!
So she took us across the air bridge thing and showed us where you check in when in labor then she showed us the triage room (we couldnt go in there tho), then she showed us where they do the c-sections if there is an emergency, then she showed us the labor and delivery rooms which are very nice! I like it cuz they hide everything, like the oxygen tubes and all that stuff is behind a picture that slides up in the room and the monitors and everything are in an armoire and there is a nice chair that reclines in there and a bench chair too, plus a flat screen tv and then there is a shower and the place where the put the baby and all tht fun stuff. And she showed us the "code pink" button on the wall that is connected to the NICU department so if baby has problems, they press that button and immediately the NICU rushes to the room to help the baby. The room was very nice tho!!!
Then they showed us the nursery's.. I guess St. Johns is the only one in Tulsa that has a "special nursery" and a normal nursery. Like if the baby needs oxygen or antibiotics or something more done, but isnt in bad enough condition to go to NICU, then she will go to the special nursery.. its kinda between a completely healthy baby and a sick baby nursery.. so if its something minor, she'll go in there (on the same floor as me) but if its something major then she'll go to the NICU unit. So thats nice to know.
Then she explained the tag system. Baby has a bracelet on her wrist, ankle and a security tag on her umbilical cord. Kevin and i will each have a bracelet and the only people who can get her outta the nursery is kevin or i. And we have to go thru two locked doors to get to her.. And if shes taken beyond the security points all the elevators lock up and security knows right away.. so she can't be stollen (or lost like in Kevin's dream.. he dreamed that the hospital lost her and he couldnt find her tracking number (like a UPS package) so they couldnt find her HAHA)
We got to see the recovery room too.. there is a padded bench thing that makes into a twin bed plus a rocking chair and then my bed.. plus another flat screen tv. and that room is nice as well.. oh, plus our own shower.
During my tour they said that Kevin can have a tray of food brought up to him (we pay for it tho) or we can call and have food delivered.. or beg our family members to bring us food HAHHA... so yeah.. thats nice to know as well... plus baby can be brought in our room in a bassinet type deal and she can stay in there as much or as little as I want her in there.
And Nurse Katy is all for natural childbirth and she said other nurses are too... so i dont feel like im going to be pressured into an epidural so thats good!! Shes worked there 20 years, another nurse we saw has been there 20 years too, another 10.. she said they all are like that.. they stay forever! Plus we saw the nun that visits everyone while yer in there.. everyone seemed SO NICE!!!
Nurse Katy said she'll try to find us on wednesday when I do the pre-admittance tests and stuff so she can work with us.. and I'm for sure asking for her if she's working when i go into labor, she just was so nice and made us feel so at home! She even gave us a hug on our way out! haha..
I liked it cuz nurse Katy was like "well thanks for considering our hospital" and Kevin is all "we decided on your hospital, no more considerations!" and Nurse Katy got all excited. See, at Hillcrest, I hadnt even toured the hospital yet and they wanted me filling out paper work with my insurance info to "sign me up!" they didnt even ask if I was interested, they just assumed thats my decision! umm.. no! :)
And to top it off, all my classes were at Hillcrest, even tho I chose St Johns .. so i was just going to keep it that way since we already paid and stuff.. well.. hillcrest called thursday and said my classes were cancelled!!! So, we have to go with St. John's classes anyways, so to me, that was just a sign that i made a good choice in St. Johns since hillcrest fell thru on my classes too! Now i just have to wait like 3 weeks for my refund!!! jeeze!!
Anyways.. so thats my long drawn out day. Now I am going to take a nap and regret it tonight when I can't sleep :) hahha
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Baby Victoria up to Now!!!
Well, not everyone has daily updates as to how Baby Victoria is doing. It has definately been a bumpy ride to say the least!!! From day one actually!
It started by going into the ER at St. Francis Hospital and finding out SURPRISE, we are pregnant!! (that was August 9th, 2008).
The reason I went to the ER to begin with is I woke up in incredible pain on my side and I basically fought through it all day long (slept most the day) and finally around 8pm I told Kevin I couldnt deal any longer, I HAD to go to the doctor!!!
We were in the ER for many many hours and they took lots of blood from me. I thought I was having pain related to my Gastric Bypass but.. nope! One of the tests they ran on me was a pregnancy test (blood) and thats how we found out so early that we were pregnant. A urine test wouldn't have showed up pregnant yet.
After that I started seeing my family doctor and because of my Bipolar and my Gastric Bypass, she thought it might be a good idea I see an actual OB rather then her because I had "other issues" along with pregnancy! So, she found me a doctor and I started going to her. Dr. Noland.
As I started going to Dr. Noland's office she then thought it would be wise of me to see Dr. Blake (a High Risk OB). So I went to see Dr. Blake and she said our baby is small (size/weight/developmental wise!) ANd she wanted to continue seeing us, along with Dr. Noland seeing us as well.
In December, right before Christmas, I went to see Dr. Blake and she said that the blood pressure in the umbilical cord was high and that might be causing the low weight of the baby. And at this point, Victoria was measuring 2 weeks behind schedule size and developmental wise. With the combination of her being small and the blood pressure deal, Dr. Blake said I may want to have an Amnio test done to see if she has any chromosomal deformities, such as Downs Syndrome or (I cant remember the names, something like Tristomy 13 or 17 or something?? I cant remember and cant find it online so I know I"m probably way off!)...
So, we were faced with the decision of having an Amnio done or not. From what I read and was told by Dr. Blake, there is a 1 in 300 or 200 (depends on what you read) chance of a miscarriage. Well, the way we looked at it, if someone said "1 out of 300 people at this party will win a car" the chances are pretty decent we could win a car. So we would go to that party!!! Well.. thinking 1 in 300 is a good chance at something good, means 1 in 300 is also a good chance at something bad happening! We didnt want to chance our daughter's life!
I asked my doctors if we had the amnio, can they "fix her" while she is in me? The answer is NO. IF she has any of the chromosonal problems, it is just for our well knowledge. So we know what we will be facing once she is born. There is absolutely nothing benefitting HER by me having an amnio, its strickly for the docs and us to know ahead of time.
When I asked Dr. Noland, "what would you do" and her answer was "its a personal choice" thats when I told her "NO" to the amnio! Because we didnt want it anyways, but for her to say "personal choice" and not anything about a medical reason for doing it. Yeah.. no thanks, we'll pass!!!
Well, the same day that Dr. Blake told me about the high blood pressure in the umbilical cord and about the amnio, she sent me to have blood work done. She warned me it was a lot of blood but I had no idea!!! 17 vials of blood later I left the doctors office! Wow!!!
So I was faced with the dilema of going on my trip to California or not. The blood work wouldnt be back until after the new year and my flight left on new years day. If they found something wrong, they might have to have me come into the doctors office (if I ended up having an infection or something). They finally told me I should just go on the trip and if I have to come back early then I will. So I did.
I have never wished I had an infection.. but I did wish that. I was hoping I had some infection and they could fix it and then the baby would be okay!
While in California Dr. Blake called and told me my blood test results. She said I had something called... Antiphospholipid antibody syndrome (APS) www.apsfa.org
She told me that I need to start taking baby aspirins every day. So I have been and ever since I've been taking them, the umbilical cord blood pressure has now gone to normal and the baby has gained weight and is only 1 week behind developmentally wise (and that was in January, not sure how far behind now) but she's definately catching up now! So apparently that blood disorder was causing the stress on the umbilical cord and holding back her needs from me!
SO.. She is now doing really good! She is still "small" she is in the 8th percentile, meaning she is only larger then 8% of fetuses her age. So because she's in the 8th percentile, they are still having me go to the High Risk and the Normal OB.
On February 12th I had an appointment with Dr. Blake and they did fetal monitoring for 20 minutes (listening to hear heart rate).. they were looking for rises in her heart beat.. I guess she "passed" the test, but she didnt respond quick enough for Dr. Blake. So she told me I now need to see her once a week and Dr. Noland once a week!!! (an ultrasound at each appointment).
I also was reminded that Victoria is breech and if she hasnt "Flipped" in the next two weeks, we will be having a serious conversation regarding c-section time!!! EEK!! Not what I wanted to hear!!!
So, I had an appointment yesterday, February 16th with Dr. Noland and over the weekend (I'm pretty sure it was Sunday night, the 15th) Victoria decided to flip! What a good girl! I'm so proud of her!!! People asked me "what was the secret to get her to flip?" thinking I did some exercises or something. I told them "Her daddy and I had a talk with her and explained if she doesnt flip, shes grounded till shes 13 years old!" It worked :) Yeah!!!! And during that appointment she finally let us see between her legs again (no one has been able to verify she is a girl since November, so we wanted to make sure that she is in fact a girl, since in November it was very early and could have mistaken her for a girl! But yes, she's a girl!
Dr. Noland said that Victoria got an 8 outta 8 at her office yesterday, she's doing great, she said the umbilical cord blood pressure was normal, my weight gain is normal (I dont see how!), my blood pressure was normal, her heart rate was around 150 which is great.. so she's doing good! She did tell me that there is nothing wrong with the baby, Dr. Blake is just "overly cautious" and wants a doc to see me twice a week. Which is fine with me!
Its just funny because most people get like two ultrasounds their whole pregnancy. I've had 9 successful ultrasounds so far (I had 2 early on but it was too early to see anything so I dont count those)... I've had so many ultrasounds that I only have two more pages in my little ultrasound photo book I have! HAHA.. Craziness!! But I get to watch her grow so thats kinda cool!!!
Ever since she flipped, I feel her constantly now. I dont know if its her new position or if she also grew or what, but I feel her non-stop! Shes a crazy active girl. Its fun :) Except she keeps me up at night (like I was sleeping anyways) but still!! hahah...
I have an appointment Friday with Dr. Blake, then one with Dr. Noland and one with Dr. Blake for the next weeks prior to birth!
I'm nervous about giving birth. I don't feel prepared at all! I havent been practicing my hypno birthing (I guess I"ll make that another blog at a later time)... yeah..
So that is where we stand right now! Not everyone knew about the Downs Syndrome scare and all that stuff because we didnt want to worry everyone and deal with it all. So we pretty much kept it to us!
Anyways. Hope that catches everyone up!!!
It started by going into the ER at St. Francis Hospital and finding out SURPRISE, we are pregnant!! (that was August 9th, 2008).
The reason I went to the ER to begin with is I woke up in incredible pain on my side and I basically fought through it all day long (slept most the day) and finally around 8pm I told Kevin I couldnt deal any longer, I HAD to go to the doctor!!!
We were in the ER for many many hours and they took lots of blood from me. I thought I was having pain related to my Gastric Bypass but.. nope! One of the tests they ran on me was a pregnancy test (blood) and thats how we found out so early that we were pregnant. A urine test wouldn't have showed up pregnant yet.
After that I started seeing my family doctor and because of my Bipolar and my Gastric Bypass, she thought it might be a good idea I see an actual OB rather then her because I had "other issues" along with pregnancy! So, she found me a doctor and I started going to her. Dr. Noland.
As I started going to Dr. Noland's office she then thought it would be wise of me to see Dr. Blake (a High Risk OB). So I went to see Dr. Blake and she said our baby is small (size/weight/developmental wise!) ANd she wanted to continue seeing us, along with Dr. Noland seeing us as well.
In December, right before Christmas, I went to see Dr. Blake and she said that the blood pressure in the umbilical cord was high and that might be causing the low weight of the baby. And at this point, Victoria was measuring 2 weeks behind schedule size and developmental wise. With the combination of her being small and the blood pressure deal, Dr. Blake said I may want to have an Amnio test done to see if she has any chromosomal deformities, such as Downs Syndrome or (I cant remember the names, something like Tristomy 13 or 17 or something?? I cant remember and cant find it online so I know I"m probably way off!)...
So, we were faced with the decision of having an Amnio done or not. From what I read and was told by Dr. Blake, there is a 1 in 300 or 200 (depends on what you read) chance of a miscarriage. Well, the way we looked at it, if someone said "1 out of 300 people at this party will win a car" the chances are pretty decent we could win a car. So we would go to that party!!! Well.. thinking 1 in 300 is a good chance at something good, means 1 in 300 is also a good chance at something bad happening! We didnt want to chance our daughter's life!
I asked my doctors if we had the amnio, can they "fix her" while she is in me? The answer is NO. IF she has any of the chromosonal problems, it is just for our well knowledge. So we know what we will be facing once she is born. There is absolutely nothing benefitting HER by me having an amnio, its strickly for the docs and us to know ahead of time.
When I asked Dr. Noland, "what would you do" and her answer was "its a personal choice" thats when I told her "NO" to the amnio! Because we didnt want it anyways, but for her to say "personal choice" and not anything about a medical reason for doing it. Yeah.. no thanks, we'll pass!!!
Well, the same day that Dr. Blake told me about the high blood pressure in the umbilical cord and about the amnio, she sent me to have blood work done. She warned me it was a lot of blood but I had no idea!!! 17 vials of blood later I left the doctors office! Wow!!!
So I was faced with the dilema of going on my trip to California or not. The blood work wouldnt be back until after the new year and my flight left on new years day. If they found something wrong, they might have to have me come into the doctors office (if I ended up having an infection or something). They finally told me I should just go on the trip and if I have to come back early then I will. So I did.
I have never wished I had an infection.. but I did wish that. I was hoping I had some infection and they could fix it and then the baby would be okay!
While in California Dr. Blake called and told me my blood test results. She said I had something called... Antiphospholipid antibody syndrome (APS) www.apsfa.org
She told me that I need to start taking baby aspirins every day. So I have been and ever since I've been taking them, the umbilical cord blood pressure has now gone to normal and the baby has gained weight and is only 1 week behind developmentally wise (and that was in January, not sure how far behind now) but she's definately catching up now! So apparently that blood disorder was causing the stress on the umbilical cord and holding back her needs from me!
SO.. She is now doing really good! She is still "small" she is in the 8th percentile, meaning she is only larger then 8% of fetuses her age. So because she's in the 8th percentile, they are still having me go to the High Risk and the Normal OB.
On February 12th I had an appointment with Dr. Blake and they did fetal monitoring for 20 minutes (listening to hear heart rate).. they were looking for rises in her heart beat.. I guess she "passed" the test, but she didnt respond quick enough for Dr. Blake. So she told me I now need to see her once a week and Dr. Noland once a week!!! (an ultrasound at each appointment).
I also was reminded that Victoria is breech and if she hasnt "Flipped" in the next two weeks, we will be having a serious conversation regarding c-section time!!! EEK!! Not what I wanted to hear!!!
So, I had an appointment yesterday, February 16th with Dr. Noland and over the weekend (I'm pretty sure it was Sunday night, the 15th) Victoria decided to flip! What a good girl! I'm so proud of her!!! People asked me "what was the secret to get her to flip?" thinking I did some exercises or something. I told them "Her daddy and I had a talk with her and explained if she doesnt flip, shes grounded till shes 13 years old!" It worked :) Yeah!!!! And during that appointment she finally let us see between her legs again (no one has been able to verify she is a girl since November, so we wanted to make sure that she is in fact a girl, since in November it was very early and could have mistaken her for a girl! But yes, she's a girl!
Dr. Noland said that Victoria got an 8 outta 8 at her office yesterday, she's doing great, she said the umbilical cord blood pressure was normal, my weight gain is normal (I dont see how!), my blood pressure was normal, her heart rate was around 150 which is great.. so she's doing good! She did tell me that there is nothing wrong with the baby, Dr. Blake is just "overly cautious" and wants a doc to see me twice a week. Which is fine with me!
Its just funny because most people get like two ultrasounds their whole pregnancy. I've had 9 successful ultrasounds so far (I had 2 early on but it was too early to see anything so I dont count those)... I've had so many ultrasounds that I only have two more pages in my little ultrasound photo book I have! HAHA.. Craziness!! But I get to watch her grow so thats kinda cool!!!
Ever since she flipped, I feel her constantly now. I dont know if its her new position or if she also grew or what, but I feel her non-stop! Shes a crazy active girl. Its fun :) Except she keeps me up at night (like I was sleeping anyways) but still!! hahah...
I have an appointment Friday with Dr. Blake, then one with Dr. Noland and one with Dr. Blake for the next weeks prior to birth!
I'm nervous about giving birth. I don't feel prepared at all! I havent been practicing my hypno birthing (I guess I"ll make that another blog at a later time)... yeah..
So that is where we stand right now! Not everyone knew about the Downs Syndrome scare and all that stuff because we didnt want to worry everyone and deal with it all. So we pretty much kept it to us!
Anyways. Hope that catches everyone up!!!
Trying this Stuff Out!!!!
Okay... So. I'm a blogger at heart! So I thought I would make a family blog so instead of writing "books" to each individual family member and leaving some out by accident, I will blog it. And if you don't know what's going on in our wonderful life, its YOUR fault for not reading :) HAHA. Like how that works??
So here is my first blog and my first attempt to see how this goes for me!! I figure I will try to blog for awhile, get used to this site and then if I think its something I'll keep up with, I will inform everyone else of it. And if it is crappy, then I will just count this as one more try that failed :P.
Alrighty then! Here goes!!! Lets see how it works out for us :)
So here is my first blog and my first attempt to see how this goes for me!! I figure I will try to blog for awhile, get used to this site and then if I think its something I'll keep up with, I will inform everyone else of it. And if it is crappy, then I will just count this as one more try that failed :P.
Alrighty then! Here goes!!! Lets see how it works out for us :)
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