I so don't know anything about a baby!

As if it isnt bad enough that the last baby I held was my nephew Jack, who is now .. 2 1/2?? And I held him so briefly because I was afraid I would break him. I don't know how any of this baby stuff works! I was really hoping in class I'd learn something. But generally.. I'm still pretty lost!

Ive put so much concentration on pregnancy and learning everything I could, now I'm going to have a baby in less then 2 weeks and I dont know much about how to take care of HER! And lets face it, times have changed.. so calling my mom up and asking her is pointless! Thats like reading a 30 year old weather report.. its kinda not gonna apply to me much!

Like, I didnt know there was a time frame when you should or should not take the baby out after birth? I just read on a pregnancy group someone asking how long you should wait till you take her out in the public. I had no clue it mattered! I figured as soon as you feel comfortable. But the answers were from 5 weeks to 3 days. LOL.. So.. I'll ask in the hospital!

I don't even know what shots she gets when. Like, should I wait till she has certain shots till she goes out in public? Can she be taken to a family event like Easter when shes only days old? How long will she have to wait till Kevin can show her off at work (He's really excited about doing that!).. Etc!!!!

I was stupid and when I went to that "Just Between Friends" consignment sale thing, I saw many books for sale. And I wanted the "what to expect the first year" or whatever.. and it was only $3 or so? But I was a dumby and I didnt bother buying it. Not sure what I was thinking! So I think I might go buy that tomorrow so I can start reading a little and have some clue what to do with my daughter!

This is going to be quite the experience! I can't tell you the last diaper I've ever changed... I havent even asked Kevin.. I'm scared to hear his answer :) I dont know when to powder them or put diaper rash stuff on them or .. eh! My mom explained bathing to me the other day.. Didnt know much about that either! I konw shes supposed to wear one layer of clothes more then I do. But like I told Kevin the other day, I"m the idiot that wears shorts and flip flops outside to realize its 40 degree's.. So yeah, I worry that I'm gonna be stupid in that department too! HAHA..

Everyone says this stuff comes naturally.. I certainly hope it does.. but in the meantime, I think I will go get me some books to read! :)

Kevin did buy me a book for xmas.. (It pays to leave Parenting books and Redbook in his bathroom cuz he reads them and goes out and buys me stuff he finds in there!) HAHA. The book is "12 Simple Secrets Real Moms Know" I havent had a chance to even start reading it yet but I think its more of an emotional guide to being a good mommy.. and I guess it touches a lot on "know-it-all" mothers who are going to try to give me their unsolicited advise and how to deal with what they say in a nice manner and go about yer day :) HAHA.

I dont mind advise, but as with most things in life, I take what I need and leave the rest!!!! ANd just because someone gives me advise, doesn't mean I'm not going to go online and read up on it on my own before I apply it! Thats me!

And yeah, I may get made fun of because I follow all the rules and trends.. but ya know, id rather be safe then sorry! (I get made fun of a lot now because I try my hardest not to eat lunch meat because you can get a bacteria from it listeria or something? and it can make baby sick or even cause death) Yeah, the chances of me getting the listeria probably arent very high. But they say you shouldnt eat it.. so I dont! Ive been told I need to stop reading online and stop following all the fads.. but ya know, I would rather NOT eat lunch meat for 9 months then find out I did get some odd bacteria disease and cause problems for Victoria. Better safe then sorry.. and I think I can live without Subway! HAHA...

The past month or so my sleeping has been different. All thru the pregnancy I wake up around 3am wanting a full on meal and baby Victoria is bouncing around having a party.. but the past few weeks its now 4am. And I'm not always as hungry, but I definately want something to eat.. and she's not as bouncy anymore (shes getting bigger tho so less bounce effects!) hahah.. But I'm like, "what happened to 3am?" hahha before it was 3-4:30am now I'm on 4-5:30am.. Not too fond of this time change!

I wonder what she will be like when she's born.. if she'll be a night person like me, or a morning person like kevin.. I hope shes a night person! I so don't do mornings! ANd she does GREAT on her late afternoon evening tests.. and she sleeps thru her morning tests.. so maybe thats a good sign!! Maybe that girl will let me sleep in! (I can wish right?) Id much rather be up all night long and sleep all day long then visa versa! Kevin has made me learn to sleep a little better.. I now am in bed before Midnight most nights. When I lived in California I didnt go to bed till atleast 3-5am! Like, Midnight to sleep? You've got to be kidding me! ANd lately, Ive been going to bed even as early as 10pm cuz I'm so tired!

I'm getting excited! I keep reading all these birth stories on my pregnancy groups and I cant help but to cry and get more and more excited.. and to see all the baby pictures.. awe! So cute! Plus, its like, Ive been chatting with these girls since August, so we've all become friends and some of them have helped me out A LOT with stuff! So its really exciting to see everyone having their babies! I think so far 42 of them have been born from our April group! (some made their apperance in March!) I cant wait till I get to post my birth story on there and show off pictures of my baby girl too!!! I think everyone is rooting for me after my break down last week over the whole induction deal! Everyone helped me thru that.. which was nice.. nice to know people care!

Okay.. its 5:27am.. I think I am going to go back to sleep now! My Belley dog is passed out in her kennel next to me and she looks so comfy.. I just chased Pigeon/Princess outta the bassinet.. so I think all is taken care of in the living room for tonight HAHA.. My pet sitting job is done.. (thats what im really out here doing, I'm not wasting time on the internet.. im checkin up on the animals.. yeah.. thats it!)

Back to Sleep I go!!!!!!! TTFN!